This is the End

Chapter 4

After Kai's death, the boys really didn't say much and Kyungsoo was always angry and he began to isolate himself. I felt terrible seeing this happen to them but even so, Luhan and Tao always stood by me.
"Alright guys. Let's scavenge the place for anything we may need." Suho shouted.
It was the first time Suho spoke to all of us like that since the incident. I guess Kris does help him after all.
"We all go in groups." Kris said as he clasped his hands together.
Tao smiled at me, as to say, "We go together."
"Luhan come over here." Sehun said. I saw Luhan look at me just once then turned to Sehun and walked towards him while Lay, Kyungsoo, and Chen paired up with them. Kris came up to Tao and I, Suho following behind while Baekhyun and Chanyeol tagged along.

Luhan's group stayed upstairs while our group went downstairs. This mall was pretty big so it explains why we were in big groups.
"So what should we look for first?" Chanyeol asked as we walked through the quiet hallways of the mall. Our footsteps on the cold cement echoed throughout the hallway.
Suho shrugged.
"I'm thinking of weaponry." Kris said. He sounded so hurt. I guess Kris isn't that much of a cold man.
"In a mall? You think they'd have some guns in here?" Tao asked sarcastically.
"Didn't say guns but look." Kris points to a store that was filled with all kinds of knifes.
"Perfect!" Baekhyun said with a smile. We all quickly jogged to the store then slowly opened the brass doors and slipped in. The lights flickered through out the store, debris was everywhere. The whole place was a mess.
"Let's get what we can. We'll count on Sehun's group to get us food and clothes." Kris said as he bent over to pick up a machete hiding under a piece of debrie.
I looked around the store with the others, picking up small switch blades. Looking around for more, I see something that catches my eye.
A cleaver.
I outstretch my hand to reach for the cleaver hiding underneath a bunch of heavy boxes. I grip the cold blade part in my hand and pull the cleaver out and then I scream and quickly drop the cleaver.
An amputated hand was clinging to the cleaver which had blood dripping on the side.
Tao and the others rushed to my side when they heard my scream.
"What's wrong?" asked a worried Tao. I pointed to the floor and they all looked down and saw the dismembered part.
"Oh God." I heard Chanyeol groan.
"Ah jebal." Baekhyun whispered and turned away from the sight.
Suho closed his eyes and turned away.
"How many times are we going to fucking see this?" Kris retorted angrily.
I clung to Tao, he hugged me tightly and whispered, "I'm sorry you had to see such a horrific sight, Luna."
I didn't say anything. I just felt sick. The amputated hand brought back the unwanted memories of Kai's murder.
I began to cry as I gripped onto Tao's jacket tighter.
"I'm scared." is all I could manage to say.
"I'm scared too, Luna." Tao replied.
He picked me up and carried me even when I insisted him to put me down.
Tao is so stubborn.

After that sight, we went back to meet up with the other group. They were already there waiting for us with food and a large amount of clothes and a lot of other things like flashlights and also medicine just in case any thing else decides to go wrong.

All of us stay together, preparing for the next leave. We won't stop walking till we get to the military base. At least that's what Kris says.
"How you feeling?" I heard a sweet voice ask me.
I looked up and there was Luhan, looking down at me with a sympathetic smile.
"Alright." I quickly responded.
He sits down beside me, "Want a granola bar?"
I nod as I take the bar away from him and begin to open up the wrapper.
"Gee, Luna I'm sorry about earlier." Luhan mumbled.
I took a bite out of the bar, looking at the cold stone floor.
"Its fine." I mumbled.
It really wasn't fine but what can I say? I don't want to see disturbing things like that. I just want my parents back. I want my brother back. I want to cry. But by saying fine, I wouldn't have to worry Luhan even more. Its okay, I'm trained to say I'm fine even when it's not.
Even when it feels like you're losing your sanity.
I'm fine.