Susie,
It's been a long time since I have written to you on here. I'm sorry for that. Things have just been a little crazy as of late. Here I am, writing one of my college admission essays. The one I am currently writing is "What experiences and/or challenges; positive or negative have influenced your academic performance? What have you learned from those experiences, and how will they guide you as you pursue your college education and life goals?"
I immediately thought of your death. So I'm sitting there writing about how you weren't just a babysitter to me, you were so much more. You were a babysitter, a role model, a second mom to me, and just an amazing person in general. And how I hope to be just like you in that sense someday. Some days I just wish that I could call you on the phone or come over and talk to you one more time. If only that was possible. Even though you're not still with me physically, you'll always be with me in my heart Susie. You have taught me so many things that I will never forget. Even if it is just something as simple as cleaning up after myself-which I seem to be lacking in that department, but that'll change someday. Or if it is something that Sarah has yet to learn, not talking about parties that people aren't invited to in front of them. You getting sick and dying has taught me not to take anything for granted, and to appreciate the little things and moments in life. I hope that your story and mine blow the socks off those admissions people. Thank you for being there for me whenever I needed you. You have no idea how much that meant to me. And even though you're gone, you're still here for me whenever I need you, so thank you.
I love you,
Amanda
