Wittshome Ranch

Chapter 14

Angela's POV

"Oh, come on Ange. It's just one shot. It isn't gonna kill ya' or anything." Jackson says, smiling mischievously at me, poring the vodka into a shot glass. Everyone's looking at me expectantly. I know my dad would kill me if be ever found out about this, but Jackson said this'll make me numb. It'll take away the feelings I'm having, and that's what I desperately want right now. Not to feel. Plus, everyone else is taking them like its nothing, and these are the happiest people I've ever met. Why not? I smile at him and swallow the shot.

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I wake up the morning after Michael and I's fight. Gosh, I can't believe I was stupid enough to say that. Of course he heard me. I feel horrible about it. I'm not sure how to make this better. The rest of the boys love me, and honestly they're growing on me. I care a lot about these boys. I want to help them and get them back on track with their career. But, my job just got a thousand times harder because I opened my mouth. I sigh and head downstairs. Jake's been taking care if the cattle for me so that makes my mornings a lot easier. I've got a couple different people coming to look at the unbroken three year olds this week. That'll cut down our hay cost this winter. I poor myself a cup of coffee and head out to my office. I think I'm gonna talk to Calum today. There's definitely stuff he's not letting onto, I wouldn't be surprised if the other boys didn't even know about it. Ashton and Luke both seem like pretty open books. But Michael and Calum are probably the two hardest patients I've ever had. I boot up my computer and walk through the stall aisles. The boys start working a bit harder today. They have to pick up after their horses now. I brought the other horse up for Michael so he's in the stalls too. I throw them each some hay and go back to my office. My computers all the way up so I start an email to the boys families to let them know how they're doing. I'm half way through Ashron's when I see I left my guitar out last night. I sigh and look at it. I don't even know what I was doing last night. I couldn't sleep. I was having nightmares about my mom again. So I thought playing would help. I stopped playin guitar after my mom died. I didn't start again until I was eighteen. The only time I touched a guitar during me teen years was when my friends and I broke into a music store one night and trashed the place. I don't really remember that night, I was to drunk and high to really remember, but I do remember the anger I felt. It was captivating. I didn't realize how angry I was at the world until that moment. My friends thought I was awesome that night, because I just went crazy. I start to shake at the memory. I walk over to it to put it away but I couldn't get myself to touch it. I start shaking more and sink to the ground sobbing. I stay that way, my knees pulled up to my chest sobbing, for about five minutes before Jake comes in and sees me.

"Ange? Oh, Angie what's wrong?" He asks gently sitting next to me as he pulls me against him. I don't answer him, just hold onto him and sob. I don't need words for him to understand what's going on. He just holds me tighter. "It's alright, Ange. I'm here. I'm right here. I'll always be here." I just cry harder.

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Michael's POV

"Michael, don't be so hard on her. There's more to her then you know. Give her a chance, Mickey. She'll help you. She'll help us." Ashton says matter-of-factly. I roll my eyes as we walk out to the barn where we're supposed to meet them.

"You don't understand Ash. You didn't hear her. She said herself she doesn't want us." I say shortly. He's being a jerk. Suddenly after his talk with her yesterday she's the best thing that could've happened to the world. I don't think so. Sure, she's really pretty, and the fact that she's kept this place running by herself is amazing, and she seems to be pretty nice, and did I mention she's gorgeous? No. I don't like her. I hate her.

"Oh, come on Mike. She's not a bad person. She's trying her hardest. Give her a shot." He says as we go into the barn. And that's when we hear the sobbing.

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A/N Well, there's a touch into her past! What did she get herself into? And will it effect her relationship with the boys? Speaking of relationship, I think Michael has some feelings for her he's not wanting to admit to. Or does Ash? ;) let me know what you think!