UpSideDown Life

Chapter33

My other half just left. My right side just died. I had tears all inside heart.
I wasn't my self as I was walking to her. Her little body is being covered and leaving.
I couldn't breath normally.

Sean got my hand to go back but I got off and gone to Leslie.

I just wanted to join with her in way she'll go.
I wanted to join my other dead siblings. All that left me. I want them here next to me.
But ..

*funeral time*
We're at her funeral right now. We brought Andrew&Arielle to say their last goodbye. Arielle won't stop cry.
Andrew was only looking over them how they was putting her in grave.
At first he yelled "No" but Sean got him and comforted him.

All did speech for her. Anastasia had a speech to keep but she couldn't.

All was throwing roses to Leslie's grave and leaving.

I had my rose in hands. I perfumed it with Leslie's perfume.
I was smelling and crying.
I was only thinking and watching how they threw the roses.
"I learned to get in touch with silence within my self , and know that everything in this life has purpose. There are no mistakes, No coincidences. All events are blessings given to us to learn from. But this was enough for me. I put all my hopes in this fvcking ground. My sister , my brothers , my kid now and all my hopes&chances now"

I was weak&hopeless. All threw their roses and left. I was only watching her grave. I had my rose in hands and I wasn't letting go.

I was thinking still when Arielle came and said "Mummy dad said we have to go." I nodded yes and said "goodbye Leslie. U were all for me. I love you." And threw the rose.

I gone to Sean and we gone to car.
He started to drive.
I was sad. I saw how fast Sean was going and I thought to end my life here but then I watched over all. I looked Sean as he smiled to me. I watched Andrew and Arielle hand to hand. Then I said to my self "I can't"

We arrived home. Andrew&Arielle ran inside. So Sean was getting things out of car. So he came to me as I was walking in door.
When I walked in I saw Arielle playing with Leslie's dolls. But it wasn't same. Then idk if it was true or just eyes did it. I kinda saw Leslie next to her. I breathed hard and looked in her eyes. She looked at me. Then disappeared.
I fainted there.
I was closing the eyes and I saw Sean running over and then all gone black.

I woke up. I was laying on sofa. Arielle&Andrew was watching TV.
Sean was next to me.
"Sean.." He got his head up and said "are you okay?" I wanted water and he brought me.

I drank it and got up.
Sean won't let me walk.
So I just sat in there and looked them watching TV.
I smiled. I got my head in hands. I opened my eyes and looked in left side. I saw Leslie there. Then I rubbed my eyes and looked again. She wasn't there.
I got confused.

I said to my self it's just mind doing that. So I calmed.

*morning*
I woke up by 11. I had headache.
Then I heard a truck leaving. I got up and saw that they got Leslie's things. I ran to her room and saw it all empty. I just sat there.
Walls was painted light pink but empty.

Sean got up stairs and came to me.
"I had to do it. I couldn't see you like that. I had to do it cuz seeing her stuff around is helpful." I nodded and smiled to him.
I got up and left to room.

I dressed up and left downstairs.
Arielle wasn't dressed up.
Andrew ate his breakfast but Arielle didn't. I asked her and she said "I can't. I won't. Leslie isn't here to race with me. Get her back here please" I slipped a tear but whipped.
I gone to her and said "you have to eat darling. Even she's not here you have to be strong for her and pretend she's sitting next to you and racing with you who eats the fastest." She nodded and started to eat.