UpSideDown Life

Chapter11

Jess's P.O.V
Mum left me, left dad. LEFT ALL BEHIND. She had two more reasons to live and she just avoided them.
I totally will lost my mind.
I just.. I thought my self and my mind told me "this is all your fault" , really it's , or this was god's plan. First good then all worse at once.
One more hope left me too.
How am I gonna do now?
I hate my self.
I couldn't think straight what to do.
I just needed some fresh air and ran out hospital.
I ran with letter on my hands and cried outside.
How am I gonna tell dad all those bad things. Those tragic. He really gonna get crazy.
I kept thinking and thinking. I really lost all this world that I had on my hands. I had everything , now I just let it go like that! I didn't think this could happen.!! I was just crying. So a nurse called me cuz dad woke up and wanted to see me. So I ran to him. I wanted to hug him.
After I made up to his room , I entered in and saw him smiling. I smiled too. And thought I can't take his smile away.
But sooner better.
I ran to him and hugged. He hugged back. He got my hand and kissed it.

Dad: how's my angel?
Jess: I'm fine dad. How r u?
Dad: I'm good. Just need to get up and walk.
Jess: soon dad.
Dad: I missed u!
Jess: me too daddy😊
Dad: it's been a while and I missed you calling me daddy.
Jess: then I'll call u this.
Dad: okay.. Are you sure u okay?
Jess: dad..daddy leave me, look ur self okay?
Dad: okay , but I'm worried
Jess: I know, but I'm grown now and I'm 15 .. U're little girl isn't little anymore..
Dad: okay. How Is mum , aaron&jaseline?

Okay now comes truth. But how am I supposed to say that? How?

Dad: Jess u here?
Jess: yah I'm here. Umm dad promise you won't scream or try to do smth bad?
Dad: no. What happened?
Jess: I gotta tell you? I can't hide it.
Dad: tell me.. Jess what's going on?
Jess: aaron&jaseline died..
Dad: no..
Jess: and mum left . She ran away. I'm so sorry dad..
Dad: oh my god.
Jess: I'm so so sorry dad.. Pls don..
Dad: shshsh don't be sorry. U had no fault my angel. God decided that and mum .. Just shshshh , she's gonna come back.
Jess: hope dad.. I hope!😔

Dad didn't expect it good but he kept him self together , he's more strong that I thought. I'm proud I have this dad.
Dad slept cuz he had headache.
And doctor said he needs his medicine and he's still not able to walk.

*5days later*

I was going to dad. He was okay now but still not walking. Legs are still hurt.
I brought him the lunch. He hates it.
He's right about hospital food. It's gross but we have to eat it.
As I entered the room his phone ringed. He tried to get it but I got it , I left next to him the plate and answered the phone "hello." I was smiling but then gave it to dad "it's for you! It's your boss" , I handed the phone to dad and he talked.
I sat next to him and listened. He was smiling that his boss called but then his smile faded away. I got worried so after he hung up , I asked "what's wrong?" , he said nothing but I asked again and he told me "um he fired me. The work needs me but I wasn't able to go there so they placed me with someone else. I lost the job. I'm sorry" , I was sad but then said "it's okay dad. At last it's just me and you here! We don't need that much money." He relieved and ate his lunch. I sat there in dad's phone. I was scrolling down the Instagram when I saw I was tagged in so much photos. All was saying they're sorry and they miss me. This cheered me up. After I left the phone I got the food away and told dad I'll be back. He rested there.
As I was walking , I was only thinking. I had the plate in hands. I just thought "how r we gonna do?","we won't have money!","what's dad gonna do?","I can stay without eating but he needs so much medicines and one day we won't have money to afford it" I was only thinking until I bumped on someone. "I am so sorry. I wasnt looking. I'm sorry!" , I apologized and he did too. "It's okay! We all lost our minds those days" when I saw him straight to eyes , I lost for little seconds but came back hahaha awkward. "Um I think I gotta go now!" He smiled and said bye so I left in awkwardness LOL.
When I left the food there , a nurse stopped me and said "he's new student here. He's Boris. No one spoke to him these last days. I speak to him but he needs someone his age.","but I'm 15.. He looked 17","he is 17..but u know teens stay with teens" I just nodded and looked him going away.
It's not like I will hit on him or smth LOL but just trying to be friends. I didn't had one friend near me those days. Jane was at her home , she can't come because her mum needs help , they have guests.
And I'm gonna try to be friend with him.
I left to dad again. I don't have nowhere to go else here. Thx god I have dad. I hope he doesnt leave me too. I pray for this to not happen.
I gone near dad , he was sleeping peacefully. I will never make something to make him mad. I promise my self here. He's the only who stayed here. And I won't make bad to leave him.