The confusing things that come to the mind ✨

wrong turn

Where did I go wrong ? I thought I was doing everything right . Prepared myself for all the shit that would break me and still ended up broken. Just staring in blank space repeating in my head how stupid I am because
Maybe I could have done something better , maybe I could have done something worse maybe I could have just said goodbye.
Contemplating who's the blame , doesn't matter because it'll always come back to me.You'd always say you're no good at anything but baby you're so good at destroying me
You'd say
"I'm sorry , babe It'll never happen again , I'm just dealing with some things in my mind that make me lose it" how ironic because I remember you saying I was the only thing on your mind , but it's not my fault though right?Never guilty you say it's not your fault because you can't control the things that goes on in your head but if I ever take the blame you'd take back it all back acting like I'm the one going crazy when you come back with your" I'm sorrys and I love yous" but if you loved me why'd you treat me like you hated me? But if you loved me why'd you push me away ? If you loved me you would have asked me to stay.