The word hybrid replayed itself in my mind and it wouldn't stop.
Hybrid.
Hybrid.
Hybrid.
I wanted to hurl. Arrow looked worried about me, seeming as I was leaning over the counter, one hand over my mouth. I could hear him asking if I was okay but I couldn't build up the courage to answer. I could take all the new knowledge of witches, vampires, and even my mate being a shadow shifter. But this? The guy in my mind and in my dreams could...kill me. One bite. That's all it took. And to think that I have let him so close to me. Let him stand behind me without a care in the world.
I was going to be sick.
Arrow rubbed my back up and down, trying to calm me. I was great full for him, I really was, but right now I just wanted to be alone. After I took a few sips of water and listened to Arrows soothing words, I finally asked him what I've been wanting to ask since I found out about what Aiden was.
"C-could Aiden..." I closed my eyes and swallowed a lump in the back of my throat. "Could Aiden kill me?" Arrow seemed genuinely shocked, looking at me questioningly. Studying my face for a moment, Arrow sighed.
"Yes. He could." Tears threatened to spill from my eyes. Aiden could kill me. My mate could kill me. If he couldn't bite me, then how could we possibly be mates? Hiw could he make his mark without killing me? How could something like this be possible. Arrow saw the sorrow in my face and turned my body fully towards him.
"Listen to me Bella. Aiden would never hurt you." His eyes bore into mine, showing so many emotions. Sorrow, sympathy, and honesty. A tear fell down my cheek.
He didn't know. Arrow didn't know that Aiden and I couldn't be together. I couldn't be with my mate. Those words ate at my heart and were slowly breaking it. Each time I thought about it, the more pain i felt. My wolf whimpered and clawed at my heart. I couldn't hold back my tears any longer. They flowed from my eyes fast and my body racked with sobs. Arrow quickly stood and wrapped his arms around me. He created a barrier and I felt like I never wanted him to move. I felt like he could block everything evil and everything sad from me. But I knew that wasn't possible.
Arrow shushed me and stroked my back, tightening his grip on me. I didn't have the strength to do anything. I felt useless. I couldn't imagine what being rejected felt like, but I'm sure it hurt. This. This felt as if the gods were rejecting me and my mate. Like he didn't want us to be together. Like he didn't want me to be happy.
Arrow picked me up and headed upstairs. He easily walked all the way to my bedroom, opened my door and laying me down on the bed. He tucked me into the covers, stroking my hair. Smiling lightly at me, he started towards the door.
"Please. D-don't leave m-me." I sobbed out. Arrow frowned at me but stayed by the door.
"Aiden will be here soon. I promise." Those words were supposed to comfort me but they didn't. Instead, I cried harder and squeezed my eyes shut. I just wanted to forget everything and go back to the way things used to be. When me and Simon were best friends and when I didn't have to worry about anything. I missed my old life. Not this complicated one. When I heard the door shut, I cried myself to sleep, building a barrier around my heart.
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Hey guys! Thx so much for over 600 views! I love each and every one of you. I also wanted to get something off of my chest.
I am writing this book for my purposes. I feel connected to it, like if I write all of this down, then every bit of drama in my life will fade away with each page.
Last year, there was this guy. I really liked him and he really liked me. It was perfect. But, like everything else, things change. And I'm not talking about my feelings for him. No. I'm talking about my friends. I lost a lot of them and found out who was really there for me. After all the drama with my friends, I felt like I needed some space. So I told him that. He said he understood, and I was happy. Happy that he understood what I was going through.
Then, summer went by and we started talking again. Let's just say, I like him more than I should. But people keep telling me that I broke him. And that hurts more than anything else. I wish I could fix everything that has happened the past year, but I can't. There are friends that I am going to miss dearly and people I am never going to forgive. But I have friends now who I couldn't live without. They are my back bone and I don't know what I would do without them.
Special thanks and shoutout to :
Katelyn Blank. A sister who I would die without. Someone who can shine light on anything dark. Someone I love with all of my heart. No matter what happens or what has happened, she will always be beautiful in my eyes. Always.
Caitlyn Scott. A girl who knows what to say and how to make me laugh. A friend who I am glad to have. Someone who I hope to grow closer to.
Baker Brooke's . The guy who knows me for who I am and hasn't run away screaming yet. Though he has tried 😂
Tim canter . My best friend. Someone who can tell me the truth when I need to hear it. I hope the best for you, and I can never be mad at you. Yes, you can get on my nerves, but for good reason. You deserve happiness in life.
And finally, though he won't ever read this...
Levi. The one person who has caught my eyes for the past 4 years. He listens to me when I won't shut up and knows how to comfort me. He's amazing in every way and i wish he could see that the way I do. I wish he knew how I see him through my eyes. I couldn't be more grateful for all of these people. To everyone who has been there for me. And to Levi, the guy I broke. The guy I love.
