The Change

12- Trying To Face The Truth

Its Been a little while since my last update so due to mad request of my mates i have come up with another chapter of romance and teasing. let me know what you think

Beth xx

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We spent most of the morning in silence. I spent most of it thinking and listening to music. My phone buzzed. 1 text, Jadie. It read: Baby girl where are you? Your mums called me multiple times go home. Please? Xxxx. I just blanked it knowing id have to go back soon anyway. I lay on my stomach the sun on my back. I could feel Jamie’s eyes burning into my face. “Yes...” I said in a silly voice, turning to face him. He smiled back at me. “Are you ok?” he asked. I looked back and shrugged slightly. He shuffled closer. I couldn’t help but moan quietly at his touch. All my worries and doubts melted away just like the rest of the world. He pulled me into him and kissed me with a passion that was so strong it could have knocked me out.  After about 5 minutes of making out and barley breathing I pulled away. Breathlessly I said “Your house?” He instantly realised what I was hinting at. Standing up he pulled me to my feet “You sure?” He asked. I answered with a nod and smiled eagerly. “I’m sure baby. I love you” “I love you too” He said back while taking my hand and leading me to the park exit.

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As we walked to his I text my mum I I’ll be home by 9 to pick up my pjs ECT and to grab something to eat, staying at Jamie’s. See you later, El x. My phone buzzed loudly in my hand instantly OK then. No kisses or anything. Shows how much I’m loved. I shoved my phone in my pocket and snuggled deeper into Jamie’s arm which was wrapped round my shoulder. I tried pushing my thoughts to the back of my mind but the more I fought them the harder they came back. The truth was I’m not wanted at home, my own siblings hate me, my dad’s a violent alcoholic who takes advantage of everyone possible and my mum couldn’t give to fucks about me. Tears welled up in my eyes. Stop thinking I ordered myself. I’ve always been one to over think things, it resulted in server depression and self harm and low self confidence to the point I became reserve and spoke to anyone not even family or friends.

“Babe?” Jamie’s voice cut into my thoughts breaking me from my memories. He squeezed me tightly. “We’re almost at mine. Are you ok?” He looked me dead in the eyes and then I couldn’t hold it back any longer. The tears poured down my face like a sudden burst of rain that was building for ages. He pulled me over to a bench and let me curl against him while I sobbed. Once the heavy sobs had subsided he asked “Tell me what you were thinking about” Between a few sniffles and little sobs I managed to tell him everything...from the fact my dad’s been violent since my younger siblings were born to how I’m hated at home and then from the arguments to the death threats and the hitting. He didn’t say anything just pulled me close and kissed me. “It's going to stop babe. No more ok? I won’t let anything hurt you.” He looked at me his eyes full of hurt concern and honesty. My stomach flipped.  I felt whole again. Thank You. I thought at him unable to speak due to being choked by tears. He smiled gently and pulled me so I was sitting on his lap. I could feel he was horny but I didn’t care, I had someone, someone who cared. Someone who wasn’t going to hurt me, or use me. Someone who made me happy and feel complete when I’m around them. I wiggled slightly in an attempt to tease him. He whined like a puppy. I couldn’t help but laugh. He shoved me lightly so I slipped off his lap. As a reflex I grabbed hold of him. He fell on top of me. Oh god. I couldn’t hold back much longer.  I pushed him to the side he dragged me with him.

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We brawled like this for nearly an hour, pushing, giggling, kissing, biting, lightly slapping, and teasing. I laughed heavily as I lay on his arm which was under my back in surrender. “Thank you.” I breathed heavily. He rolled onto his side his face inches from mine. “It’s nothing. I’d do anything to see you smile and your eyes sparkle.” He said as he planted a tender kiss on my lips. We lay there for a while making out until he said “Come on lets go back to yours and get your stuff then we’ll head to mine ok?” I sat up reluctantly not wanting to go home. “Ok.” I said as I stood up and stretched. He wrapped his arm around my waist and we headed back to mine.