New years eve 7:38pm
I miss the days when I didn't have a care in the world.. I miss the days when I could just live without pressure always being there.
Me and Ross are perfect. I'm so happy with him but I feel like I don't really know him. I feel like his tired of me. This is how it started with me and Jake... So I guess that's why I'm questioning everything. Me and Jake were really great for a while. Then something just changed. He didn't hold me like he use to. He barely said I love you to me. He had to get drunk in order to kiss me a lot. He started asking me about sex and when we were gonna do it. I never gave in.. I was to scared to even think about it. He understood that but kept asking. After all that he just started with hitting me. Over and over again, every night. I really wished I told someone sooner but I was way to afried. We would play it off in public like we were the "best couple" but we weren't... And the saddest part was that I loved him to much .. And I always felt like everything was my fault and that's why he hit me. I was always a tough girl.. But when it came to Jake I was like a scared little puppy. Me and Ross have been amazing but what if it all changes ... What if all that stuff about his mom was bullshit. What if he's another Jake.
New years eve 8:34pm
Ross is holding me talking about the future while we look up at the stars.. See this is what I'm talking about .. I love him.. But love is unreal... But I loved Jake but love is unreal... Cause if Jake really loved me why'd he hurt me? It just doesn't make sense. I guess u can say Jake never really loved me.. But he did, he really did , I know he did, so why. Ross is still talking about the future but I guess he can tell some things on my mind.
"What's wrong"? He asks I look up at him and say nothing but I know he knows somethings up.
"Come on tell me what's going on"
He says I replied
"I'm just scared"
"Of what"?
"Love"
"Love"?
"Yeah... I don't really know what love is anymore"
"Laur you know I would never hurt u right"?
"Yeah I know ross"
"Good cause I'm in it for the long run and I love you.. We are amazing together "
"So your not gonna get tired of me"?
"No of course not .. I could never.. Ever..."
We kissed and for a pretty long time.
I trust him with my heart.. I just hope he doesn't have slippery hands.
New years eve 12:00 midnight
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
I hear from inside the house I look at ross who was already looking at me and smile and say happy new year.. I love you. He says it back and we kiss. I couldn't have been more happier I really was happy... Maybe too happy for my own good.
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Finding Ross
Fanfikceit all started with a song on the radio. laura was a normal teen girl. although her idea of fun was against the law, she always wanted to help. she was the type of person to say "love is unreal" well that's until she met Ross.
