Nobody Wants A Teenager- A Phan Adoption Story

Chapter 5- Final Goodbye, Maybe...

Robin's POV:

One bag, an averagely sized black suitcase filled with all my things. Clothes mostly, but over the years I've been here I've managed to put together a small collection of items I cherish. And now I'm leaving.

It feels slightly surreal, that during the course of a few hours my life is changed forever. I'm terribly excited, and nervous, but I try to just push those emotions away and focus on not messing this up. Maybe if I try really hard it'll all turn out ok, I can try. Maybe I'll be fine. Or maybe I won't...

Shut up, I tell myself.
This is good, be happy!

And I am excited, but I'm also terribly nervous. What if this doesn't work out? What if they decide they don't want me and take me back here, because let's be real, that's a definite possibility.

I run my thumb over the glass frame of an old family photo. It still makes me sad, but I don't cry anymore, I am strong and independent and don't need anyone. These people, Dan and Phil, they seem incredible but I can't let myself need them. I can never let myself need anyone ever again, but that doesn't mean I don't have to like them...

I chuckle softly to myself. This is usually the part of the story where the adopted kid turns mean and rebellious and seriously badass. I'm kind of a let down for that, honestly, I'm about as badass as a bumblebee.

I've never been sent back here for behavioural problems. Well, not really. If the family I was with decided to become my personal counsellors and sort out all my life problems and force me to "open up about my feelings" then shit is going to hit the fan, like it or not.

No, I've always been sent back to the orphanage for being broken, and that's how every single one of them has described it as, broken and confused and will never fit in with us. Which is ok, because like I said, as long as I stay totally mentally independent, nobody gets too hurt if things don't go to plan. When things don't go to plan.

Oh well, nothing I can do about it but try, right? I can give this a shot, this might be the last ounce of fight to be accepted I have in me, so I might as well give it my all.

Pressing my lips together in a fake smile, I clutch the handle of my suitcase and walk through the doors of my room, not unlike what I've done many times in the past. This feels kinda different though, I can't seem to quite put my finger on it but there's something different with these people, something good. I hope I stay long enough to find out exactly what that is.

I walk down the halls, dragging the suitcase behind me, and take a deep breath. Nervousness won't help me, but I can't help but feel antsy as I finally reach the doorway of the canteen, knowing Dan and Phil are waiting for me on the other side.

I'm just gonna Naruto it, I think to myself and lean forward, sprinting through the doorway and into the cafeteria, were Dan and Phil appear to be signing final papers and speaking to Agatha. I frown slightly upon glancing at her, and seriously consider pushing her as an act of final defiance, even though I may have to return someday soon. I decide against it, and with slight regret I clear my throat loudly.

Dan and Phil turn around and beam at me.

"Hey!" Phil says brightly with a smile. "We're just sorting out some final paperwork and we're good to go."

I grin back at him, and decide to quickly go say goodbye to some of the little children that I'm fond of. Apparently while I was packing the children were dismissed once again, so they're all playing outside in the yard, despite the freezing weather. I feel my boots crunch the fresh snow beneath my feet as I trudge through the dull playground, and some of the kids notice me and stop playing.

A little girl, one of my closest friends named Wendy, looks down at the ground with a gloomy expression.

"You're going away forever, aren't you Robin?" she whispers.

I smile sadly. "I dunno sweetie, maybe I'll get to stay with these people but I promise that if I do stay, I'll still come visit you and the others, okay?"

She nods, tears flooding her huge eyes and I crouch down to be level with her.

"Hey," I whisper, "you're so strong, Wen, you know that? You're the big kid now, can you take care of the little ones for me?"

She nods again and flings her arms around my neck, sobbing quietly into my shoulders and I wrap my arms around her, hugging her back and struggling not to cry myself. Emotions are so contagious, and I will miss these kids so much.

"You be a good girl for me, ok honey?" I tell her.

She smiles sadly and nods once again, and some other kids begin crying as well.

"Aw, guys, I'll come back, I promise. I love you all, you know that?"

They all return my "I love you" in a weeping chorus, and I smile at them all, before being attacked and caught in the middle of a huge group hug. Giggling, I hug them back and promise once again to visit soon.

I grasp the handle of my suitcase and say goodbye, waving and walking back inside and hearing all the teary goodbye's being shouted to me.

One thing about being an orphan, the little kids will always love you, and you love them back.

I overhear Agatha talking to Dan and Phil as I come inside, and I'm just about to turn around the corner when I hear something that grabs my attention.

"This girl, she's... not right. You probably don't want her, or you won't by the end of it, but just trust me when I say there's something seriously messed up with that kid."

"What are you talking about? What's wrong, what happened?" Dan asks, and for a moment I'm worried she'll tell them my real story.

"Unfortunately, because of some laws of confidentiality in her case, I can't tell you, but she can if she chooses to, and she's never told anyone of her own free will before, so I wouldn't get your hopes up. Anyways, we're done here, good luck!" Agatha tells them, and I turn around the corner into the cafeteria.

"Hey!" Dan smiles, and I return the expression as I wheel my suitcase up to them.

"We're good now, ready to go?"

I nod, trying not to look suspicious, like I'd just overheard something important.

"Yeah, I'm good. Let's go."

And so we leave.

And there is chapter 5! I am so so sorry I haven't updated in a few months, I've had some hectic school going on and I've been working on some other fanfics and a few original stories.  Updates should be a little more regular from now own hopefully, and thank you so much to those who've commented and given their opinion on this fic, it's very appreciated, I can tell you. Well, until we see each other again, bye for now you smol beans.

ToMarnia x x