Where do we go?

5

Audens p.o.v

I guess it wouldve been a good idea to sober up after chris went to bed that night, but i had an awful habit of taking things to far.

As i went to refill my cup for the fifth time, i grabbed the entire bottle of coconut rum. 

The next thing i knew i was sitting on the docs leading to the lake surrounding Sams Summer house.

I looked to the side and i saw the fire on top of the hill, nobody was around. and i think that's what triggered my sudden need to go swimming. 

I pulled my shorts off along with my  hoodie and cannon balled into the water.  

Well a cannon ball was my intentions but unfortunately i lost my footing somewhere along the edge of the docs and i slipped, cutting my forearm on a nail on my way to the surface of the water.  It stung but i ignored it, wanting to see how long i could last in the water.  

I floated on my back and drifted into yet another drunken thought. 

This one wasn't gunshots and paramedics though, this one was her. 

I  was sitting up on the edge of my hospital bed.  

"Green or Blue" I had asked 

i never got an answer to that one.  You just looked up in thought for a while until i threw the inflatable ball my uncle had brought me  at your torso.

"jerk" you laughed, i guess too hard because you winced and wrapped your hand around your wrist 

I think that's when i knew 

i could see the reflection of the sun setting in the mirror behind you, causing you blonde hair to have a golden glow around it.

"So why are you in here anyway?" you asked me 

I Looked down and swung my feet

"Oh god you didn't like try to kill yourself or anything id you, because if you did im the worst friend in the world" you shook your head

"No" i smiled "I guess i just fucked with the wrong person" i explained vaguely 

You were quiet for a moment, probably thinking of the possibilities

"Well good, we dont need any more sad people around here" you sighed and layed back down 

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"Auden get the fuck out of the water" an angry Stella yelled from the dark, scaring me.

i swam over and climbed the ladder

I was expecting her to be mad but she just laughed at me 

"Get dressed, we're staying the night, Megan brought a tent" she threw my clothes at me and retrieved to Megan who was waiting at the end of the docs. 

I watched them walk up the hill and reluctantly followed from a safe distance.

I saw Stella's face light up as Megan slipped her hand into hers.  

I guess it reminded me of you, because i felt a tear fall from my face an wiped it with my sleeve immediately 

"Heyyyy" i heard a drunken familiar voice behind me

i turned to see chris 

"I came back to find you!" he threw his hands in the air and i wiped at my nose and smiled

"Hi" i said wrapping my arms around him

"I have a question" he said 

"Yeah?" 

"Why the fuck are you crying" he said seriously 

i guess  he was the kind to sober up in times like that, when someone needed him.

i laughed and kissed him.

"i liked that" he laughed and lifted me up onto him.

We were sitting in the sand now, me i his lap.

I heard the screen door shut in the wind i felt around me in the distance, reminding me of you. 

He kissed me again and i felt his hands travel up my back

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"I cant do this right now" i laughed as you wrapped your hands around mine, helping me stand up on the skateboard. "i don't need to be in the goddamn hospital again" i laughed gripping your wrist tighter. i saw you wince and loosened my grip. 

"just goo" you let go and i was actually succeeding, you were jogging beside me. 

i made it down the road and hopped off. 

i heard thunder and felt the rain coming in the air

we looked at each other

"Fuck"

"Shit" 

we said at the same time, followed by laughs 

we sprinted toward to your moms house and found ourselves in the pouring rain

I stopped running held my hands out, spinning 

"What the fuck are you doing" you laughed once you realized i wasnt running beside you anymore.  

"i forgot that i love rain" i said dizzy from spinning.  

"comon"

"make me" i challenged 

you pulled your hoodie up over your head and ran down, grabbing my hand.  i squealed as i slipped and fell.  you pulled me to my feet and we mde it to the porch without further injuries

i closed my eyes and leaned against the outside of the house, and listened to the rain along with the screen door shutting and opening in the wind

i felt your hand on my cheek, surprising me 

i opened my eyes and there you were. 

i leaned into you and you kissed me.  it wasn't subtle, it was unplanned and messy.  but i remember how we moved in sync.  how i pulled at your sleeve while you sat down in the porch chair, pulling me on top of you.  

you gripped my waist with one hand the other traveling up my back

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"Youre bleeding" chris said pulling away

i felt the pain in my forearm the second he reminded me, but it didn't hurt as much as him reminding me it wasnt you by that lake with me.  it was like you dissapeared again

Emma nothing could compare to the way it hurt when you were gone