I Hear Your Heart Cry for Love (Nathan Sykes Fan Fiction)

Chapter 22

So I'm baaaaaaccck!!!!! Feels good to start writing again but I'm not going to lie, updates will be slow....but on the positive note my orchestra won our competition!!!! We got so many awards including 2 trophies 1 plaque and 1 certificate! Plus Florida in general was amazing! Went to Disney and Universal and it was ggrrrreat! Anywhose I'm sure you would like to actually read on so I give to you chapter 22

xoxo Daniela                                                                           

Nic's POV

Who needs boys? I am an independent young woman. I don't need a guy to define my life let alone make me depressed. No one ruins Nicola Ramirez's happiness. It's like a crime if they even try. I am so done with boys.

"Hey Nicola, want to go out with us or are you just going to sit there all night?" The sound of his voice instantly made my heart practically leap out of my chest. I struggled to find the words so I just nodded and he smiled that famous smile of his at me. Okay so maybe I'm a small hypocrite....okay a huge hypocrite. It's not my fault though, I swear! It's him! He's the one that drives me insane with how caring, sweet, kind, and for goodness sake the dude is like gorgeous. After my little walk with Seev, Max and Tom, you'd think that I would actually stick to my word and get over the asshole that basically ripped my heart out, put it through a shredder and then burned the remains. Unfortunately though, when we returned, Mr. I need to go out clubbing, getting drunk, screw a girl and not talk to anyone turned into Mr. This is really awkward but I'm going to be nice and make an effort to fix things. It was almost as if he never went insane! One minute he was a jerk and an ass and then the next he was caring and still an ass....but in a different way. I want so badly to put him in my past but at the same time, I can't help but get lost when I look into those amazing green eyes.

"Earth to Nic!" I was shaken out of my thoughts by this annoying ringing in my ear and some weird girl snapping in my face..oh wait it's only Angie.

"You know......for some reason that's starting to get really annoying." I said.

"Well maybe you should stop going to another planet and pay attention." Angie snapped back.

"Woah! Calm your pants!" I threw my hands up in defeat.

"Whatever. Look it's your choice what we do. Just please don't choose clubbing." She had that begging look in her eyes that made it really hard to say no.

"Fine...but I don't know what there is to do here. Where are we anyway?" I asked.

"We're in Newcastle." answered Siva.

"So what is there to do here?" I asked.

"Well there are pubs, clubs, mini golf-" Jay began to say.

"Stop right there! We're going mini golfing!" I shouted causing everyone to cover their ears.

"Oh hell no!" shouted Angie over my excited screams. I shot her a look and she returned it with another. Eventually she started making facial expressions that really confused me because I had no clue what she was trying to say. I think she realized that I was very confused so she sighed and elaborated.

"Don't you remember that one time we went mini golfing back at home? You kept screaming four or fort or whatever the hell it is and then making really inappropriate comments." Angie whined.

"Your point?" I asked.

"You're gonna emabarass me!" she whined again.

"What else is new?" said Max and that got me laughing. Everyone else joined in too as Angie just stood there pouting. Luckily though, she eventually gave in and we were off to play mini golf.

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"FOOOOOUUUURRR!!!!!" I shouted as I swung the club back and rammed it into the ball, making it go flying to the other end of the hole we were on. By now we were on the 6th hole and I think that everyone figured to duck by now when I said that.

"I don't know why, but something tells me that you're not using that word correctly." said Siva. In return I just smiled at him and made my way over to the other end to await my next turn. It was only me, Siva and Nathan since Angie didn't want to be near me to embarrass her and well everyone else basically had a "creative discussion" on who would be stuck with me. Personally I thought they were the lucky ones because really, I make everything so much more fun.

"Say whatever makes you feel better Nicola." I heard Angie call over. I guess I said that out loud. They were only one hole away from us so really it was still obvious that we were one group. I just ignored her and continued playing. It was starting to get late as the sun was setting and I was also getting really bored.

"Hey guys, I want an ice cream." I randomly said.

"Too bad we're playing mini golf." answered Angie.

"But I don't want to play anymore! I want ice cream!" I whined.

"Then stop whining and get your ice cream." snapped Tom.

"But I don't want to go alone!" By now everyone looked like they were ready to kill me. It's not my fault they're boring thoough. I mean seriously, I have never seen anyone get so into a round of mini golf before.

"I'll go with her." I was interrupted from my thoughts when I heard a certain someone speak up. Everyone else just shrugged and I was too shocked to really say anything. I mean yeah he had changed withing the past two days but he still avoided me and I don't think he even spoke to me since the wonderful incident on the bus.

We walked over in silence to get the ice cream and once I was sat down with my vanilla ice cream with chocolate sprinkles, he finally decided to talk.

"Look Nicola, I'm sorry." he said while looking down. I looked up from my ice cream and just smiled.

"It's okay, people make mistakes all the time. I'm sorry too." He looked up at me very confusingly.

"So wait, that's it? I'm forgiven?" he asked.

"I don't see why not." I laughed. He smiled and moved his chair closer to mine. He started to put his arm around me but I moved from it.

"What?" he asked.

"I said you're forgiven but that doesn't mean you can just assume I'm gonna go back to whatever it was we had before. You broke my heart Nathan." Now it was my turn to look down.

"I know but I want to fix things." he said.

"This isn't something you can just fix though!" I shouted.

"Why?" His voice was raising now too.

"You hurt me. Read my lips! You fucking broke my heart! You fucking broke me! Don't even try telling yourself you have a chance to go back to what we were!" I snapped. I mean really! He had the nerve to try to make a move on me after everything that we went through!

"I miss you Nicola..." His voice was softer this time.

"Can you stop with the Nicola this Nicola that? It's Nic! And I don't care Nath! I don't want to go back to that!" People were starting to stare now but I honestly didn't care.

"So what do you want then because I sure as hell don't know!" Nathan shouted.

"I just want my best friend back." I lowered my voice this time.

"Fine. Whatever you want....Nic." H stormed off after that but I didn't follow. I wanted to, but I had my ice cream to finish. After a few minutes had passed and I had cooled down, I began to think more clearly. Gosh Nic, you really are a stupid idiot.