I Hear Your Heart Cry for Love (Nathan Sykes Fan Fiction)

Chapter 14

Nic's POV

What the hell? What am I doing. I screwed my best friend while drunk. I lost my virginity while drunk. My best friend is in love with me? This can't happen. This just can't happen again. No. No. No. I was currently pacing back and forth as everything was running through my head.

"Is that all you're going to do?" asked Nathan. I looked at him and saw eyes filled with concern...and love. I panicked and ran out of the room and straight into Angie.

"Woah what happened to you?" She asked.

"Nathan...we...slept...together....he..loves..me.." At this point I was freaking out so much that I was coughing like crazy. Angie just took one look at me and then stormed into Nathan's bedroom. Next thing I knew, I was hearing a bunch of screaming. I couldn't deal with it so I ran down the stairs and tripped at the bottom and fell. I just sat there and started crying. I felt like I was losing it. It was happening all over again. Friends. Love. Pain. I couldn't go through that again. After Greg I just can't put myself in that position again. As I sat in the corner crying, I heard a door shut and someone coming down the stairs.

"You still crying?" asked Angie with a smile across her face. Instead of answering her I just gave her a look. One that said leave me alone or face my wrath. In return she sighed and sat on the couch across from me.

"You're only crying because you're scared you know." she said. I started getting annoyed with her at that point. Who was she to tell me why I'm crying. Only I know why I'm crying and it's not because I'm scared.

"Shut up. You don't know anything." I answered her making sure she heard how annoyed I was.

"More like you don't know anything. You're obviously in love with him too."

"Am not!" Was I in love with Nathan? I mean yes he's sweet and kind and has amazing eyes but he is like one of my best friends. I know I had a little crush and all but that was all it was. We'd never work out if we were a couple anyway.

"Earth to Nic? Is anyone there?" asked Angie.

"What!" I shouted.

"I just said you definitely are in love with him because you're only happy when with him." she rolled her eyes as she said it.

"I'm not in love with him!"

"Are too!"

"Am not!"

"Bitch!"

"Slut!"

"Whore!"

"Jerk!"

"Face it Nic. No one ever made you this happy. Other than Greg from what I've heard." Angie started saying.

"Fuck you! Greg was an asshole who only knew how to piss me off and hurt me!" I couldn't believe she was actually going there.

"Yeah. That was obvious from what I heard! 'Greg is a great guy. Greg is amazing.' Face it Nic, you always stick up for him!" she shouted. With that I couldn't take it anymore and I jumped at her tackling her to the ground. I slapped her and started to strangle her as she pulled at my hair. I let go to grab at her hand and with that she turned us around and started slapping me. It went on for a good 5 minutes of us rolling around screaming and slapping each other when the Max and Siva finally came down and broke us up.

"What the hell is going on with you girls?" asked Max.

"Ask her. Shes the psycho one here!" screamed Angie as Siva held on to her.

"I'm not crazy!" I yelled back. I tried to slap her again but Max had my arms pinned down.

"You must be crazy if you can't even see that you're in love with a guy who won't ditch you for someone else and then come back when he sees he can't get better!" With that I broke down crying as the memories filled my head. She had no right to go there.

"Oh crap Nic I'm sorry." Siva had loosened his grip on her and she came running over to me. In return I threw my arms around her as everything played in my head. We sat there for a few minues until we heard Tom fly through th front door.

"Guys we have a problem." In his hand was this mornings paper. On the front page was a picture of me and Nathan getting into a cab. "Nathan Sykes Leaves Nightclub With Mystery Girl" Everyone started freaking out as I walked into the kitchen to make some tea. I then heard Nathan and Jay come down the stairs and a bunch of yelling over what to do. Meanwhile I was sitting at the table enjoying some tea. Angie came walking into the kitchen and sat down with me.

"I will never understand how you don't freak out over things that actually matter." she said casually.

"The way I see it is that paparazzi always gets things wrong and makes a big deal. The guys have three options. 1) Say Nath and I are dating 2)Say it was a drunk hookup or 3)Say that I'm just a friend he was escorting home. Or they could choose to ignore it which might just cause more drama." I answered her. Really I was freaking out. I was freaking out over how I might be in love with my best friend and the paparazzi took a picture of us meaning I'd have to give an answer eventually. I know I was being self-centered only worrying about myself but I knew Nathan was bound to come in looking for an answer in 3-2-1..

"Nicola I am so sorry. This is all my fault." Nathan came into the kitchen and sat down and took my tea. "Ughh what is this?" he quickly said as he made a face.

"That is my raspberry tea that I snuck in my bag with a lot of sugar and a bit of lemon. I would've have made a tea that you would have preferred but I like it when people don't take my tea." I answered laughing.

"Whatever." he said with a smile but then it quickly faded. "Nicola we really need to talk.

"Well I'll go see what the guys are up to." said Angie as she quickly walked out into the living room with the guys.

"Okay so let's talk. I really don't like it when people drink me te-" I was quickly cut off by a look. There was no way I was going to get around this.

"Nicola. I love you. No matter what I'll be there for you. But I need to know if you feel the same way." His voice had so much care as he took his hands in mine. I couldn't bare to look into those amazing green eyes because I knew that if I did, I'd give him the answer he wanted and I wasn't sure if that was even my answer.

"Look, Nathan. I just don't know." I whispered to the ground.

"Don't know what? If you love me or not?" he began to raise his voice.

"I don't' know!" I was so confused at this point. I then looked up at him and saw so much love in his eyes. A look that I'd never truly seen. After staring into each others eyes for what felt like hours, Nathan leaned in and kissed me, and I kissed him back. This was different than all the kisses I shared with my past boyfriends. This was sweet, gentle and caring. When he pulled away, I was left in shock. I quickly left the room and went to find a laptop. I found Nathan's and quickly went on and booked a flight back to New York. I then found my cellphone and dialed a number I hadn't called in a long time.

"Hey, I really need to talk to you. Can you pick me up from JFK airport in like 12 hours? Thank you sooo much!" I quickly got off my phone and began packing. My flight left in about 4 hours which gave me like one hour to get everything together since you have to be at an airport 3hrs ahead. Everyone was in the kitchen talking about what to do and I used it as an opportunity to grab my bags and head out to the taxi waiting for me. I know they soon will be looking for me but there was only one person who I wanted, heck needed to talk to right now, and he was back home in Connecticut.