I Gotta Boyfriend But I Want Her (Stud&&Fem)

Chapter 2

Jaye.

By the time i got home from Nikk's yesterday night it was about 5 am in the morning. I was so tired i fell straight to sleep.

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Today , i felt like complete shit. I got up and went to the bathroom. I looked into the mirror and all i saw was regret. I ain't shit and aint never gone be shit. You think i dont think about the shit that im doing and know its wrong. I been trying to get my life together but its like one minute i put it in my mind this is what imma do and the next day its back to the same ole Jaye. Jermaine? I met him at a club. I use to be a stripper there. Yeah, mfs always wanna fix they mouth to sit here and judge us,but look yall got a grind and we have ours. We're no different. Anyways I gave up my job and i guess he assumed it was for him but the truth is that the same night i met back up with nikk. I was dancing and our eyes connected. All of sudden i felt wrong about what i was doing. I felt my body belonged to her.. i never told her that. I guess you can say Jermaine is a cover up. Wierd thing is i never knew much about him he seemed like a little bougie ass momma boy. He texted me.

Jermaine: Bae?? Ughh I hated hearing that shit. I felt controlled, lock up, I hated titles. I ignored him and got dressed. I needed sometime to myself today and i knew all he wanted to do was take me out and try and fuck again. No offense im not sayin he can't put down... maybe he can. But i don't want it. As long as me and Nik doing what ever we do, she's never used her strap on me. When we met up i explained to her that i was still a virgin and tho she's aggressive asf she still manages to respect that. But Jermaine on the other hand he begs for this shit every damn day and that shit be getting on my damn nerves. I called up my girl Tia.

"Tiaa?"

"Wassuh jaye where tf yo ass been i be missing yo ass at the club. Smh it aint the same not having my shift with you anymore."

"You know im trynna change for the best girl " i laughed a little. "How you been maan ?"

"I been good i met this stud at the club the other night.. girl she was fine as'f ,, Her names D . You just dont understand. I was finna put these fingers to work on the damn stage. " i laughed.

"You silly asf"

"Shii i got her number so You already know how that go... but how u and ole dude." I rolled my eyes hearing and exhaled a deep ass amount of air. "We coo"

"Mmhmm i don't know why yo ass with him i can obviously tell you dont wanna be with him Jaye.. stop frontin " I never actually told her about nikk.. i wasn't embarrassed or nun. Tiaa knew i liked a female and she knew i was fucking with one while im with Jermaine now , she just doesn't know how she looks or who she is. She was offended i wouldnt tell or show her. But i told her we wasnt nun serious and she respected that and let it go.

See Tina 21, we been rocking since she moved out here her senior year which was some years ago . I fight she fight. I kill? She kill. You get my drift. I started strippin first and then i convinced her to do it with me. I kinda regret it now because i left and she's still there. She's a little naive so i dont want anything to happen to her.

"SOOOOO whatchu doin today?"

"Shii im free till about 11 my shift at 12:30am"

"Good im coming over"

"Iight bet."

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I got there and when i walked in some dude who basically raped me with his eyes leaving her garage fast asl. I know that wasn't who i thought it was. . I walked in her house. I was bout pissed asf "TIAAA!"

"...." i didn't hear anything so i walked up to the bathroom and i heard her sniffling. "Open the damn door!"

"Jaye give me a minute!" She yelled back. I bang on the door so damn hard it bout broke.

"I saw Rodney ass leave! Your ass is caught! So if you dont open up this mf door imma break this bitch down and im not playing witchu! "

"Promise me you wont get mad."

"I aint promising shit! Open up the mf door for i go after his ass.. you know what thats exactly what imma do." I act as if i was leaving. And she opened the door screamin "no wait !" Her eye was black asl. There ws blood drippng from her nose. This shit brought back many flashbacks of me seeing ma at a young age get beatin by my pops. One night it got worst. I lost her. By this time i was turning 18, so child protective service wasnt called they just took my pops to jail and left me to live where im at now.. on my own. "What the fuck T !?"

She smiled through her tears " Jaye its no big deal,, you know how Rodney is. He over heard me talking to you about the stud and he got a little jealous ... that all." See this was one of the reasons i regret drawing T to the street life. She met Rodney on her shift. He sweared to her that he loved her and all that good shit niggas tell you. They started getting serious or whatever and then i noticed everyday tia came to work with bruises. I told her ass to leave him tf alone but for some reason he keeps coming back..

"THATS ALL.. THATS ALL? ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS. TIA ONE DAY THIS MF GONE KILL YO ASS. I TOLD YOU TO LEAVE HIM TF ALONE. LISTEN TO ME. I TELL YOU THINGS CAUSE IKNO FROM EXPERIENCE!" I lifted my shirt and showed her the stab mark. When i was strippin you couldn't see it.. make up was my mf friend.. I ran water over my arm and you could see 7 cut marks going horizontal down my arm. Yea i was suicidal. There was a story to it all . Nobody's ever seen that shit. But if it meant it was gone save somebody's life. I was willing to show it. She broke down crying and i was the shoulder she cried on. I helped her clean up and gave her more then the money she wouldve made tonight, because i told her ass she wasn't going to work. She aint fight me on it. I cooked for us and turned on a movie. She layed on me while we was on the couch. This was like my mf sister.. i wasnt just gone roll like that. "Thank you Jaye,, for everything"

"Shut the fuck up... you know im trying to watch this movie." She laughed because she knew i wasn't the sentimental type and that was as close to a "your welcome" she was gonna get..

Another chapter for yall... comment. Vote. I will continue to update as it comes to mind. Hope yall enjoy! ❤ -Jaye Mariell-