Old Friends and New Adventures

Chapter 5:

I sat by my bed, thinking over the letter mother sent me. Watch over him, why? I thought. I know Fen had done things he thought was right at the time but just made a bigger mess. Mother was right about his fear. He will let it control him. Or maybe it's not fear, he might believe it's his duty to make things right.

I sighed at the thought of him making this a bigger mess than what it originally is. It seems he has a habit for it. It's been weeks since I've talked to him properly. I have to put it on my to do list. I'm kind of hoping he will forget I'm around and reveal himself. Not hide his emotions from me. It's a hopeful thought but I was very doubtful that he would forget.

A knock at my door interrupted my thoughts. I hopped up to get it but was in fact met with a wonderful face, "Cole," I was happy to see him.

"'That name, he can't say that name, he won't say that name'," He looked at me, "he would understand you know? He likes to be trusted."

I sighed, "I know Cole, but my pain cannot add to his." Cole nodded in agreement.

"Solas he is in pain, he won't show me his pain, but I see it."

I frowned, "His pain is more than one would expect, he believes it can't be healed so there is no point in fixing it."

"No, he doesn't want it fixed, it helps him remember." I put my arm over Cole's shoulders.

"You didn't come here to talk about Solas or Cullen did you?"

Cole shook his head and thought for a moment, "I don't want to be bound like the others."

The events at Adamant really rattled the poor boy. "Have you discussed this with Solas?"

"Yes, he won't do anything, he said there was an amulet, I need to find it."

"The Inquisitor is involved yes?"

"Yes."

"Then she will find it Cole, you don't have to worry about it okay."

"I can't hurt anyone."

"You won't Cole, there is more to you than you know. You are odd for a spirit but you are you. We won't let anything happen to you."

"Thank you. 'she sit on the window waiting, "when will he be home? What is he doing?" She looks and sees him running towards the castle, grabs her and takes her away, she is crying and screaming, why would he do that.'" Cole looks at me, "why don't you help Solas' pain? I think you could."

How could I help his pain when all he wants to do is avoid me, a sharp pain occurred in my heart. Wide eyed, I ran. Cole vanished and went his own way.

I ran to find the pain, worried beyond belief. Who is this? I run following the feeling intensifying as I got closer. I came to a bedroom complex in the castle. I burst through the top floor bedroom, only to find Cullen tossing in bed.

I walked up to him, the pain is almost unbearable. He was sweating. I noticed his chest and abdomen, perfectly sculpted. He had worry lines upon his face, I wanted to wash them away with a stroke of my finger.

He began to grunt and moan, "Cullen?" He tossed at my voice.

I shake him to wake him up, "Cullen." I whispered. He suddenly sat up eyes open and grabbed me. I gasped at the surprise. I held my hands up to his face and held it. "Cullen," I spoke softly, trying to sound lovingly.

He blinked a few times, adjusting to what he is seeing, "it's not real Cullen, it's me Is—Sage," I stumbled over my name, it was close.

He quickly hugged me, tight. He didn't want to let go. "I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry. I..."