Memories...

Chapter 4

"Guys hurry! I see it." I jogged to the bus with a huge grin. I remembered! "How do you know it's not one of the other busses?" Jordon crossed his arms over his chest. So it's not? No. No I'm sure it is! "'Hollywood Undead'. I remember that name. That's why. I love this band, I also remember that." The guys smiled happily before the bus door opened. Matt jump in before I could and spread his arms in the little kitchen section. "Welcome home, Al!" Something about the way he called me by this nickname was strangely familiar. The others entered the bus behind me. "Come I'll show you your bunk and where your stuff is." Jorel smiled at me and grabbed my hand, pulling me deeper into the bus. My bunk was the very last on the left. "I have a bottom-bitch-bunk?!" J chuckled and placed his hand on the bunk above mine. "This is mine and the one across from you is Danny's. Just so you know which company you keep." I laughed. "Not really good one if I'm on tour with you." Jorel grinned stupidly while the crew members laughed. "Leave this bus right now, young lady! We don't have space for your negativity." Playfully smirking I looked at Jordon. "Wow! Big words and a nice sentence-structure... Did I teach you that?" He kept pretending to sulk. "Well you wouldn't remember would you?" This got some of the guys give him the death-stare. The crew went completely silence and Dylan looked like he just got stabbed. So it's still eating him up... Danny looked at me, worried about my reaction. My expression dropped and my eyes got watery. "H-how... can you s-say t-that?" I sobbed. Jordon who was actually waiting for my epic-comeback looked shocked. "Oh my! Al I didn't mean it like that! I'm so sorry!" He came over to hug me. As he hugged me I got up on my toes, reaching for his ear. "Got you, asshole." I pulled away laughing. Jorel beside me heard it and repeated it for the whole bus. They started laughing like crazy and Jordon just hugged me once more. Still an arm around me, he held his other hand in the air screaming: "We have our Ali back!!!!" The other crew members cheered. I still can't get a hold of it. But I can feel that my memories of these lovely friends are just around the corner.

I was talking to some crew members in the back of the bus as I heard the guys gathering in the front, talking about the show tomorrow. My attention shifted from Sarah, Elli and James as I heard my name. "So what other song should we perform, instead of the one with Ali?" That was Danny. "Well we could still do it." Matt suggested carefully. "Danny could sing her part and Jordon could take care of the harmony." – "I'm not doing the song without her." That was Jorel. "Yeah it wouldn't sound right otherwise." George. "But it's also not fair that other crowds got to listen to it and the next ones doesn't." – "But you can't expect her to perform." Dylan said. "Why not?" Surprised they turned around. I was leaning in the doorway now going over to stand besides Matt. "Matt's right, it's not fair if some fans get to hear it and others don't." Not knowing what to do, they looked at each other. "But you don't remember how to sing it right?" I shook my head. "No but I still have a whole day. I just need someone to teach me again." They guys still looked unsure. Matt placed his hand on my shoulder. "Come on! She can learn a song in a day, you know her. And if she says she's ready, then she is. J you should teach her. You two worked the hardest on the song." I smiled at Jorel which he returned after a second. "Alright." Jordon got up. "I'm gonna get you my guitar Al."

Soon after I sat with Jorel in the back of the bus. Jordon's guitar was resting on my lap and Jorel had brought his. Everyone else went to the front. "I'm gonna play it for you first so you know what it sounds like okay?" I nodded and he started playing. Something started to click inside me as he stopped. "That's the intro." I tried to hold on to whatever just happened inside my head. "Play it again. Play the whole song." Hr frowned for a second but started again. The sound filled the room. I closed my eyes and just listened as Jorel started his verse.

"Now we're back in a world with no hope left, once again you twisted the knife in my chest, I'm stuck in the dark and can't seem to get out, Maybe I've just learned what it's really all about..."

I remembered every part of it. We had wrote it a while back. J and I were goofing around with the instruments. He left to get something to drink and I started playing the piano. I had some chords in mind that I wanted to use, the melody however just came to me as I played. Excited about how much I liked it I've wrote it down. J came back in as I scrabbled everything on paper, not wanting to forget a single note. He liked it as well. Saying it sounded a lot softer than what they usually did, but that it did sound like them in some way. Also that it sounded a lot like when I was there. We kept writing and showed it to the other after we already had his Verse and my Chorus done. Danny took over the Pre-Chorus. Kurlzz did a whole lot of screaming towards the end, making it a bit heavier again, while Johnny got the second Verse and Funny and Charlie took over the Bridge. I remembered that we also had a lot of fun while recording and how we played around with it afterwards. I hummed the melody of Danny's Pre-Chorus and then sang my lines.

"I'll pull the knife out of your chest, Fill your deepest emptiness, With the help of the Army you have built... I'll show the light to you once more, We'll help you out that door, till you're finally relived from all your guilt... The Undead Army, will always be your shield... Oh woah... Oh woah.... Ohhh..."

My fingers moved on Jordon's guitar playing the harmony to Jorel's. Just like we always have. The other guys came in and we finished the song. I grinned wide and the guys laughed happily. Even Dylan who had been so quiet and sad since yesterday. Matt grabbed my shoulders. "You remembered! You remembered!!" He whipped up and down a little. The guys looked so happy. But soon their happiness turned into confusion as I didn't join in. "What?" Jorel said beside me. "I do remember the song and I remember how we wrote and recorded it, but everything else, everything that is not related to the song is still fuzzy and out of reach..." I avoided their eyes. I had to disappoint them once again. Gosh, why can't I remember?! The silence became unbearable to me and since I still felt their eyes on me I looked back up. But they didn't look disappointed. Neither did they look sad. They were all still smiling. "You started to remember, that's all it takes. Don't rush it, it'll come back eventually and in the mean time we can make new memories." George said while rubbing my back. I smiled as they took the guitar away and pulled me into a group hug. "I might not remember how, when and why but I do know that I love you guys. That's something I'll never forget."