New beginnings (A Finn Harries fanfic)

6. Truth

´´Finn´´I said without realising saying his name. Caspar and Alfie nodded. ´´Are you sure about this, boo?´´Caspar asked. It was my turn to nod. ´´Yeah´´ I said. I was sure. I had feelings for them both, but i´d always known that my feelings for Finn was stronger than my feelings for Jack. Even though Jack made my knees weak. After thinking about it the past two days,i was now sure of my decision. There was no going back. 

The walk over to the twins´ house felt longer than it used to. Probably because I was nervous and couldn´t help it but feel guilty. I walked up the stairs and knocked on the white door. Only a matter of seconds later, the door opened. My heat beated faster as my blue eyes met his green. ´´If you´re looking for Jack, he´s upstairs. ´´Finn said and I could still feel the sadness in his voice. I looked down at the ground and then up at him again. ´´I´m not here for Jack´´I said. ´´I want to talk to you´´ Finn nodded and sat down on the stairs, and I did the same.It was kind of unexpected, because i didn´t really think he would want to talk to me. I could feel my butt getting cold, but i didn´t really care about that right now. ´´Look´´I started as my voice trailed off. ´´I really like you Finn and i never wanted to hurt you.´´I looked at him, feeling my throat getting dry. ´´You asked me if I had feelings for Jack and I couldn´t lie about that. I do have feelings for Jack, but whatever i feel about Jack is nothing compared to my feelings for you´´ I said, getting the feeling that Finn didn´t really want to talk to me about this since he sat there staring into the thin air. It´s not that i would expect him to either, like I said. I felt stupid for even ´´deciding´´which one of them i liked the most. It felt like a childish game, even though all of it was true. My feelings for Jack was nothing compared to what i felt for Finn. It was just that my feelings for Jack were a little more exciting and i don´t know, dangerous? When Finn still didn´t say anything I decided to just give him so privacy. ´´If you ever want to talk to me again, just call me ok?´´I said to him before I got up on my feet and started to walk away. 

Just within ten seconds after I started walking i could feel my phone buzzing in my pocket. I wasn´t sure if I were going to answer it or not. I looked at the caller id on the screen and gasped as i saw who it was.  Turning around, I saw Finn leaning his body against the wall as he had his phone close to his ear.The corners of my lips pulled itself in the direction of my ear. My heart beated faster as I saw Finn smiled back at me. I walked in the direction where he was standing, biting my inner lip. Even though the butterflies were having a party inside of my stomach, i wasn´t sure what the next move would be. That only took me two seconds to think about when I realised our faces were only a few inches apart. I could feel his spearmint breath as we got closer and our lips met, feeling my whole body tingling. I wrapped my arms around his neck as our lips synched with each other. I smiled at him as we pulled apart, catching our breaths. Finn grinned at me. ´´What now?´´he asked, his eyes seeking mine.  I didn´t realise that he was talking to me before a couple of seconds later. I was still hung up on our kiss, feeling my whole body shaking. ´´Why don´t we just let time show us?´´I said as he pulled me closer. 

Two weeks later.

´´You know helping is not a crime right?´´I pouted as I looked at Finn who was just sitting on the sofa, watching me as I carried the last bag of the new stuff i bought for my flat. I was exhaused after spending the whole day shopping with Finn, and he noticed. ´´C´m here´´he said with his husky voice opening his arms in a gesture. I felt butterflies as I sat in between his legs, leaning my head against his chest. How did I get so lucky. The past few weeks had been amazing and I got to know him a lot more, even though we just had been on one date we found out that we kind of liked it better staying home watching a movie or something. We weren´t really the dating types. One thing for sure, my feelings for him got stronger for each moment i spent with him. We weren´t on the I love you step now, but I think time will tell if we get there. What about Jack you may ask? Deep down I still feel pretty bad about still having feelings for Jack. I really like Finn, don´t get me wrong but sometimes I wonder what it would be like dating Jack. Not that I would, of course. I am happy with Finn, like really happy and when i´m not around him I can´t help it but miss him. You should be with the one you cant live without, right? ´´What are you thinking about, love?´´Finn asked, making my palms sweaty. Something he always did. I liftet  my head a little to meet his gaze and I smiled at him. ´´How good your ass would look in the kitchen right now, making me dinner´´ I laughed as i tried to make a puppy face. Finn smirked. ´´Only if you say the magic word´´ He said, poking me playfully. ´´Ok master´´I smiled. ´´Finn, Finn the giant twin´´ I teased, something i shouldn´t have done because he started tickling me. I laughed. ´´What did you say´´He challenged me. ´´St--´´I couldn´t get the words out because i was laughing too much. There was times like these i caught myself thinking, why me? Why did he choose out of everyone?