the wonder << j.g.

chapter 7

                Lydia

I was legit screaming in my mind after jack and I had sex.

Like whoa what the fuck happened?

It was amazing, but I'm also angry at myself for letting it happen.

He broke through my walls that was protecting my love towards people.

I didn't think it was possible, but I think I might let him break them more.

There's no point because I knew he would do it anyways.

"lydia, did you hear me?" sam snaps his fingers in front of my face.

"oh sorry, what?" I ask.

"jack and I are going to the pier want to come?" he asks.

I freeze still in my place and replay last night over and over again in my mind.

"uhm, sure?" it comes out as I question.

"okay..." he gives me a strange look.

The while walk to the pier I keep on walking past all these groups of guys or just two guys.

I just stay behind sammy and jack while they talk about something that I'm uninterested in.

As for jack and I's relationship?I have no clue what we are at all.No clue.

Mostly because we haven't talked about what we are and what happened last night.I'm going to give it time though, just in case.

What worries me most though, is what's going to happen after this camping trip is all over?

We live a a good hour away from each other and we mostly could probably only se each other on the weekends once school starts up again.

I put the thought behind me because I'm far from ready to start thinking about school.

As of now, we may be able to see each other more often though because it's summer and one of us has a car and license.

I, on the other hand, have a permit and I have to start taking courses by the end of august.

My birthday is late in the year and school is usually over by then.

Again, not worried about school.

I'm snapped out of my thoughts when I'm suddenly falling.

I get stopped when I feel a force catch me.

I look behind me to see no one other than jack gilinsky.

"thanks," I mumble still shocked to talk to him about last night.

"no problem," he smiles all his perfect teeth showing.

We walk to the end of the pier and the sun is just drifting into the water.

It reminds me of when I tried to pry myself away from falling into jack's trap of love.

Even though he didn't purposely set it.I think about this and it makes me mad.He just has that effect.

I shudder and think wow he really is perfect huh?

I take my phone out and snap a few pictures of the sun sinking low into that water.

I find one that I love and post it to instagram.

It blows up with likes from my many friends.

I look up to see sam and jack engaged in yet another conversion.