In The Morning| 18+

TWENTY THREE

T E R E S A

"She is up there"

I can hear the faint voices coming from downstairs as Iay down in this same bed that I have spent the last month rotting in. It has been a month since everything happened.

I don't do anything anymore. I have no motivation to do anything anymore, I barely muster up enough energy to shower, I do not eat, I only see the sun when Jasper comes in and opens the curtains.

Jasper has called everyone to try to help me or at least cheer me up, but no one knows what is wrong. Jasper has called a pastor, therapist, my mother, my father, my friends from all different stages in my life and nothing happens.

He does not know what is wrong with me.

Florin moved back in by the end of week one in an attempt to cheet me up but that didn't even work, the only thing that will cheer me up right now is Alejandro and I know how bad that is to say.

Alejandro has fallen off the face of the earth. He teaches his lectures online now, he doesn't attend any events but all his programs and foundations are still up and running, but no one has seen him.

I have tried everything to get in contact with him but nothing. I even asked my father to try and find him then the King who is his mother and definitely knows about me came to him personally and told him to stop looking for her son.

"I leave for a little bit and you blow up your life" I look over at Emma as she takes off her coat and closes the door with the her foot. She runs her fingers through her hair as she walks over to the windows and opens up the curtains allowing the sun to shine through.

I cover my eyes with my hands as I turn over in the bed, she walks back over to me and and lays down next to me. She sits up leaning against the headboard, "I told you so and you knew this would happen" She says as she pokes my cheek.

"I am not sure why you are all sad and heartbroken, this is of your own doing." She says as she moves my hair out of my face, "I miss Ale" I say making her nod. "Well Ale isn't going to come back realistically. Teresa you have to wake up and face the mess you have made" She says.

"You and Alejandro were doomed from the start, the whole relationship on your end was built on lies and secrecy. You really have to face reality and you have to think about what it is you want now" She says.

"No more lies, no more secrets." I blink as I just stare at her, "I have to tell Jasper" I mutter and she nods. Oh Jasper, I frown as I cover my eyes just as the memories of us come flashing through my head.

I really do love him or at least I thought I did because if I really did love him, I would not have cheated.

"I love you and you are always welcome in my house, do you want me to stay?" She asks as I wipe my eyes, I shake my head no and she nods. "I will be at your fathers house" She kisses my head repeatedly then gets out of the bed.

She grabs her coat off the bed and waves at me as she walks out of my room, I don't even know what exactly his reaction will be. I place my hand on my stomach as the uneasiness start to settle in, I sniff as I sit up and look over at my nightstand.

I look at the framed picture of the family that I have ruined, I love my family I really do but I also love....Alejandro. I shake my head as if I can shake out the thoughts in my head then I slap myself.

My head whips to the side as my hair follows suit, I push myself to stand up as the tears continue to sting in my eyes. I slowly make my way out of the bedroom and take the most slowest steps I can as if that is going to change anything.