Headed to Cali // Calum hood

3. Goodbye

I had 5 days till Im going to California to basically start a new life. I hadn't yet said anything to Lucy and Toby and today was the day I was going to do that. To say I'm scared was an understatement.

I had text Lucy after I had finished my breakfast to ask if she can come to mine and she had agreed and said she'll be round at 1 and it's is now 1230. I'm beyond nervous, I'm panicking so much.

It was now 1 and i am sat patiently waiting for the knock at my door and shortly after 1 there it was, I got up from my sofa and made my way to my front door and there my best friend was standing they're looking confused so I invited her in and we went upstairs to my room and we both sat on my bed and I broke the silence by saying what needed to be said.
"Right Lucy I don't know how I'm going to say this but I..um I'm moving away. "

"Your what?! How far away? Where? When?" All these questions came flowing out if her mouth so messily I could only just hear the crack in her voice like she was about to cry. I felt so bad.

"Well you know I got expelled? my brother and parents thought its best if I move to California with mikey. To you know start fresh, surround my self with new people and to focus on school and not get into trouble anymore, I realise that my idiotic behaviour has already got my expelled once and don't you think it would be cool to live in California? I'm so sorry but...." I trailed off as I felt my eyes get watery and my throat grow a small lump deep in it, I tried hard to fight the tears but I couldn't hold them back so I let them fall free my from my eyes.

"Why are you crying lily. I get what you mean it will be great for you. I'm gonna miss you so much but I can't hold you back what type of best friend would do that"

I laughed a little "okay thanks for understanding Lucy, I really want to go even though this opportunity did come from being expelled. I'm going to miss you so much but I'll visit as much as i can well because I also can just get up and never see my family again" I chuckled slightly  swiftly whipping away the last tears that rested on my upper check.

We stood up from my bed and hugged each other for what seemed to me like ages. As we pulled away from our hug we were just stood in my bedroom when Lucy said;

"have you told Toby yet, he'll be heartbroken"

"No, not yet I'm telling him when comes round in a bit. I hope he won't, we have had some rough patches lately, I'm worried he will want to try long distance but I know we both wont be able to keep up with it, especially him" we both chuckled at what I had just said.

It had been about an hour and we had just been hanging out in my room, making the most of our last time together for a while, I'm going to miss her so much we've been best friends for years it's going to be weird not seeing her near enough everyday.

Lucy had left 2 later and I heard a knock at the door and guessed it was Toby. I galloped down the stairs to answer my front door and let him in. "Hey lil's why did you want me to come round" he said before planting a kiss on my lips. "I just have something to tell you, it will be better to tell you in person than over the phone". he responded with a confused, screwed up facial expression.
We walked up the stairs to my room and we both just flopped onto my bed, Toby making him self at home as he has spent most of his time here.

"So what did you want to tell me"

"This is going to be hard to say but, I...um...well..."

"Are you breaking up with me" he said whilst gently resting his hand on my shoulder.

"No, well not entirely. Basically I'm moving away to California I'm about 5 days with my brother"

"What, why?!"

"Because I got expelled from our school and my parents were going to move me to an all girls boarding school, which i really do not want to go to so if i wont be able to see any one but go to a school that i don't wan to go to i may as well go to a school that i will enjoy and not see anyone from home except my  brother. This is such a good opportunity for me Toby, you have to understand" I said as a stray tear fell down my face and my head fell to look at my bed, avoiding eye contact.

"Yes I do, it's just I can't believe we're not going to see each other any more, it's going to be so weird. I would fight for you, hard untill you gave in but i dotn want yuo to go somewhere that you will hate. plus you have your mind made up and I would hate my self knowing that your only here for me" he placed his index finger and thumb under my chin to lift my head whilst looking me in my eyes.

"Thank you Toby, obviously we're going to miss each other, I'm going to hate being away from all my family and friends- especialy you. Just know that I love you and It's for the best" he shook his head in agreement before saying he loved me back then kissed me passionately before we enjoyed our time alone and just had fun in each others company for the next hour or so before he had to go home.

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Today had been a lot of things, mainly upsetting and tiring. i had said goodbye to two of the closet people in my life, the hardest part about it was not knowing when i will see them again. 

It was know 8:30pm and i was sat in my now near enough empty room, boxes surrounding me. looking at them made me think about the next chapter of my life, living in California, id never even been to any part of america let alone living there, it was scary to think about sometimes but the fact that i would be with my older brother whom i am very close with it re-assured me. I decided to close my eyes and go to sleep,today had taken away all my energy.

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sorry that this chapter is short, im rying really hard to make them longer but i will feel like im wasting time and dragging it on for no reason.  i hope you all enjoy it, please vote and follow me! i will update as regularly as possible, thanks for reading. -c