S is for Story about You and Me

Second Chance

"It's been 5years Matthew. What now? You expect me to accept you with open arms? You left me with no explanation. You disappeared like a freaking lamp genie. Everything isn’t the same. You can’t just run off and come back whenever you feel like coming back. This place”, I pause and roam my eyes around the café. “Along with me has changed, thanks to you", I mouthed with sarcasm.

I don't want to look at him or be with him in any place especially in this place because he has left me nothing but heart ache. I was devastated that day when he didn't show up to our meeting place. I waited for more than four hours under the pouring rain, and just when I thought I forgot about that moment; here he is bringing back that loathsome memory. I look down the floor and close my eyes hoping to shrug it off together with our other memories.

"Charlie I know that that was so cruel of me to left you hanging. To run off without saying anything like a total jerk. I absolutely know that you will not accept my apology but still I want to tell you that I’m so sorry. It’s way too late to explain but hear me out please”, he pleaded.

How could I say no? How could I leave him if I myself want to hear his freaking explanations? I want to shout at him. I want to slap him and then walk away. I want to strangle him and break all his bones. A moment like this I wish I could switch off my brain.

“Why didn’t you show up that night?” I finally ask.

“I left you because I could not continue to give you false happiness. I don’t want you to fall into a deeper pit of being just a rebound girl. I left because I felt like I can’t love you fully while I’m still leering over my past relationship”, he says with teary eyes. “Leaving you like that was one of the most painful decisions I have done in my life. I would understand if you can’t forgive me now but let me make it up to you. I’m asking for another chance to give you the real happiness and genuine love”.

It’s hard to say what’s on my mind but I have to say it. I know I dated him only for two months but that was the happiest months of my life. Unbelievable but I know I loved him truly.

I sit up straight and gaze at him as I decided to say what I want to say, “Honestly, you could just told me about that before coz I know I’ll try to understand. You have no idea how long I waited for you to show up and explain your side. All these years I’m convincing myself that what happened to us was just a dream and you were just a pigment of my imagination. Why do you have to come back? What, because you gathered up the courage to love me? Damn you!” I yell at him with no hesitation. “You had a part in my heart”, I put my hands on my chest as though feeling my beating heart. “But you chose to vacate that part. You chose to break my heart”, I pause for a moment and wipe the tears slowly falling on my cheeks.

“Charlie? Let’s go we’re late for Chuck’s recital”.

Matthew gapes at the man who just called my name. He’s shocked and confusion is now apparent on his face. I stand up while wiping out the tears on my face with my palm. I walk to his side. “Matthew this is Charles Sumners my husband”, he holds my hand. “Charles, he’s Matthew Weiss”. Matthew’s face fall off when he heard who is Charles in my life.

“Oh, you’re Matthew. I know who you are. It’s nice to meet you by the way, thank you for being an ass coz if not for you I wouldn’t be this happy because of Charlie”, Charles uttered smugly.

“Goodbye Matthew. See you when I see you”, told him before Charles and I left the café.

Charles knows everything about me. What I’ve been through after Matthew left. He helped me with everything and I owe Charles what I am right now. Although, I have to admit that Matthew has been a part of me and will always have that part, but only on the past pages of my book of life. Charles is my present and will be my forever together with our son Chuck.

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Love the one who loves you and do not take his or her love for granted because no matter how we desperately want to put things the way it was; we simply can’t do it. So when you have a chance to love and be loved do not waste it because second chance will not always be your friend.