The Struggle

Claiming my Independence

I knew the task of taking care of my daughter and going to school would be hard so I dropped out to take care of her.I still didn't let it get me down.Finally Tony decided to step up and help me take care of his child. Everything was back on the right track.I started to notice things about him.He had children I never seen before.I also noticed how he had problems being faithful. I knew I couldn't trust words that came out his mouth.But before I knew it I was pregnant again....I didn't find out I was pregnant with my daughter Karol until I was5months pregnant. Surprisingly he stuck around more than before.Karol was born on Feburary15,1999.I continued to work to take care of my kids just in case he decided to leave me.Things were going ok till he began getting physical with me. All I could think was oh no not again. If I decided I didn't want sex he scared me so bad I gave in to him.So it was not long before Monese was on her way.I gave birth to her on September 30,2000.I found a apartment and moved out of my mom house when she was2months old.Now I was scared than before.The abuse that was going on before will it get worst??Of course I had been slapped, choked and punched sometimes. I couldn't understand what was going on why was he so abusive? I thought he loved me the way I love him. Sometimes looks are deceiving.