The Struggle

Changes

The next day came I tried to distance myself I didn't succeed. I tried a new job something Tony never had. He considered hustling a job.What a joke.What a waste of skin.I thought I was in love now that I realize what it was I can laugh about it.I think I suffered from insanity to continue on with him.So weeks past I gave in and had a night of passion with Tony.Once again I found out another baby was on the way.So on 6/22/2003 I gave birth to James Jr.He was a 8lb little boy.I moved to another apartment for a new start.So I thought it was a big mistake.I always stayed in drama.OMG people picked random fights with me. It was soon after then I noticed a change of events. First cps being called on everyone wow.....I dealt with that 8months.It was he'll but I got through my storm by myself no help from nobody.I began to feel like I have no life and I need to live a little. I still loved Tony but I was interested in others too.He had he's cake and eat it too.So yes I meet other men and I had a lot of fun.Sometimes. I was afraid he would catch me and put he's hands on me.Well at that point it didn't matter because he had cheated on me so much and even had babies on me.I guess the straw that broke the camel back was he slept with he's ex Laura who I hated who also hated me .I worked for a healthcare place and was happy.There I meet someone who was a friend then a lover.