Back (book 2)

1. We meet again

Alexa's POV

I looked at him and I could even process what what going on. I was fighting tears from spilling down my cheeks. I quickly sat back down in my seat and had to force myself not to turn around. Nobody seemed to notice that I was having an issue.

After what felt like forever they finished calling names and we all did the basic throwing of the cap into the air shit and then we got up to leave.
I was then again drawn to the curly haired, green eyed man standing in the back of the room. He tugged on his curls, which is a habit I loved wait no did love. I needed to be done and this was the last thing I needed to happen to be done.
I quickly walked towards my family but before I could reach them someone grabbed my wrist.
I turn around and there he was. He was a mess, but a beautiful mess. Oh how I've missed his big green eyes and his cheeky smile and our long days of cuddling in bed. I missed everything about him., but I shouldn't.

"Um congratulations" he said nervously.
"Yea thanks, why are you here" I said trying to stay calm and not cause a scene.
"Lex I need to talk to you, how things ended. I've been a mess I don't know how I've managed to go along like this. How everything happened it was a mistake and I need to tell y.." And before he could finished I cut him off.
"Harry, no why would you do this? I've been a wreck ever since that night. I cried for a month straight I barely left my bed. The hardest thing in the world was telling my mom to pack up the clothes left in my closet that were yours and have them sent to you. I kept the few things that had so much meaning to me but it was so hard. I wore the same Rolling Stones tee and sweatpants for a week straight. Everything I did made me cry; the shower, my bed, the kitchen, even the damn bathroom. I had no motivation no drive to do anything, then when I got a call from my school telling me if I missed anymore days of senior year I wouldn't be eligible to graduate. That's when it started I worked my ass off and I got into my dream school and I will be doing what I love. I have nothing holding me back" I said a tear falling down my face.
"I never met with her to cheat on you" he quickly said.
"What?" I had heard him but I was in shock.
"I said.." I cut him off again
"No no no I heard you, wait then why did you meet with her?" I asked him. I saw mine and Haidyn's family along with Niall quickly look over then walk out.
"I met with her because she wanted to get back together. I agreed to meet with her while I was in LA because I needed to tell her about you, to tell her to back off. I was at the point of yelling I got up and stormed out. Lex I promised you the first day we met I would never hurt you. When you walked out and I didn't get to explain my heart shattered. I read the note and saw the ring on the table and I cried. I had to have the boys help lift me so I was in bed. I was depressed, well I have been since that day. I've never been able to move on I can't. You're it for me. Without you I'm nothing" he said and I was shocked. I didn't know whether to yell or cry or what. The feeling that hung heavy was guilt. If I had let him explain we wouldn't be in this situation.
"Oh my god" was all I could manage to say. I felt like I could fall over.
"What's wrong baby?" Ugh the way he called me baby made goosebumps appear on my skin.
"This was all my fault" I gulped feeling like I was hyperventilating.
"Lex no it's not. I should've told you sooner" he said as he pulled me into his chest. His scent over took my senses. I was crying into his chest. We were the last ones in the room.
"Harry, if I had let you explain we wouldn't be here. We would be together, two fucking years apart because I'm too stubborn and selfish to listen" I cried even harder knowing I was the cause of this.
"Stop look at me. We're together now it's okay. Maybe it's what we needed now that the band is done and I'm living in LA now maybe is the perfect time" he said while placing both hands on my cheeks.
"Harry?" I asked.
"Yes love?"
"Why did you guys break up?" I asked curiously I had never known the real reason.
"We were getting older and we were so sad to do it but we needed to be able to have lives and be able to be normal 25 and 26 year olds, were still best mates and we get together all the time it was just time to stop" he said while playing with my fingers.
"Oh" was all I could manage to say.
"Harry, what does this mean for us? What are we going to do now?" I asked because at this point I had no idea.
"I'm willing to work this out, I need you lex and I know you need me. We can't do this without each other." He said