Back (book 2)

2. Earlier

Harry's POV
"Niall what am I going to do? What if she doesn't want to talk to me? What if it doesn't work?" I said as I paced back and forth and tugged on my hair.
Niall sat on the hotel bed.
"You have to relax mate, it will all work out how it's meant to. Obviously you two are meant to be together if you can't find anyone else and you're still so torn up about this after nearly two years." He said as he patted me on the back.
"Am I crazy for missing her?" I asked him.
"Of course not. This isn't just some girl obviously, she's the love of your life and you both deserve to be happy." He said.
"Thank you." I said to him as we left the room to leave for the graduation.

Neither of us said a word as we drove to the place that the graduation would be held. I was so nervous. How would I know what would happen, she could refuse to talk to me and it would be over and this would be worthless. She could jump into your arms and tell you she missed you and you would live happily ever after the voice in the back of my mind said.

We finally pulled up into the parking lot. We made our way inside. Niall spotted Haidyn's family, they had saved him a seat. Since nobody knew I was coming I found an empty seat in the back.
I quickly spotted her light brown hair in the sea of red caps and gowns. She turned around to talk to Haidyn who was directly behind her.
She was so beautiful. She had matured and looked so gorgeous. I had seen pictures of her but nothing had compared to this moment. Her big smile and deep, dark brown eyes. Her soft tan skin and long eyelashes. Everything about her made me crave her. I couldn't believe I had gone almost two years without her.
The principal finally went up to the podium and everyone became silent as he spoke.

After the few speeches given they began calling names.
After what felt like forever her name was called. The sound of her name made shivers shoot down my spine. She accepted her diploma and shook his hand. I was so proud of her, she did it. As she was walking off the stage she froze. Her eyes met mine. We had this pull that always drew us together. No matter how many people were in the room we were drawn to each other. She quickly looked away and hurried back to her seat. She sat there frozen the rest of the ceremony.

As soon as it was over everyone got up to leave to go get refreshments outside.
She saw me again and turned the other way and walked towards her family. I quickly grabbed her wrist and she stopped. After a few seconds she turned around. Her brown eyes met mine and my breath hitched in my throat. Her beautiful features and her sweet scent made my heart pound. She was really right in front of me. I quickly dropped her hand hoping she wouldn't walk away.

"Um congratulations" I said nervously.
"Yea thanks, why are you here" she said seriously.
"Lex I need to talk to you, how things ended. I've been a mess I don't know how I've managed to go along like this. How everything happened it was a mistake and I need to tell y.." And before I could finished she cut me off.
"Harry, no why would you do this? I've been a wreck ever since that night. I cried for a month straight I barely left my bed. The hardest thing in the world was telling my mom to pack up the clothes left in my closet that were yours and have them sent to you. I kept the few things that had so much meaning to me but it was so hard. I wore the same Rolling Stones tee and sweatpants for a week straight. Everything I did made me cry; the shower, my bed, the kitchen, even the damn bathroom. I had no motivation no drive to do anything, then when I got a call from my school telling me if I missed anymore days of senior year I wouldn't be eligible to graduate. That's when it started I worked my ass off and I got into my dream school and I will be doing what I love. I have nothing holding me back" She said a tear falling down her face.
"I never met with her to cheat on you" I quickly said. I had to get right to the point.
"What?" She asked again.
"I said.." She cut me off again
"No no no I heard you, wait then why did you meet with her?" She asked him. She looked back and we saw her and Haidyn's family along with Niall quickly look over then walk out.
"I met with her because she wanted to get back together. I agreed to meet with her while I was in LA because I needed to tell her about you, to tell her to back off. I was at the point of yelling I got up and stormed out. Lex I promised you the first day we met I would never hurt you. When you walked out and I didn't get to explain my heart shattered. I read the note and saw the ring on the table and I cried. I had to have the boys help lift me up so I was in bed. I was depressed, well I have been since that day. I've never been able to move on I can't. You're it for me. Without you I'm nothing" I said without taking a breath. Her face was blank. No sign of emotion. I didn't know whether to be scared or thankful that she wasn't leaving or what.
"Oh my god" was all she said.
"What's wrong baby?" I said as she stumbled back and I caught her.
"This was all my fault" she panicked.
"Lex no it's not. I should've told you sooner" I said as I pulled her into my chest. Her coconut shampoo that I had grown to love took over my senses. She was crying into my chest. We were the last ones in the room.
"Harry, if I had let you explain we wouldn't be here. We would be together, two fucking years apart because I'm too stubborn and selfish to listen." She cried even harder and I held her tighter.
"Stop look at me. We're together now it's okay. Maybe it's what we needed and now that the band is done and I'm living in LA now maybe is the perfect time." I said trying to convince her we were going to be back together while lifting her chin to look at me.
"Harry?" She asked.
"Yes love?" I said while getting lost in her eyes.
"Why did you guys break up?" She asked curiously.
"We were getting older and we were so sad to do it but we needed to be able to have lives and be able to be normal 25 and 26 year olds, were still best mates and we get together all the time it was just time to stop." I said while playing with her fingers. Talking about the ending of the band made me sad. It had been 9 years and we were done. It had been my life since I was 16. 
"Oh" was all she said. 
"Harry, what does this mean for us? What are we going to do now?" She asked, and I was thankful she did.
"I'm willing to work this out, I need you Lex and I know you need me. We can't do this without each other." I said.