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12. It's okay

Alexa's POV
I quickly sat up. I woke up sweating and breathing heavily. I quickly stood up and then when I looked down there was a pool of blood all over my side of the bed.

"Harry Harry get up!" I yelled and he quickly sat up.
"What is it Lex? Are you okay?!" He freaked.
"Harry..." I said and pointed to the blood. He quickly got up and came over to me.
"Baby shh it's okay, let me call your doctor and see if we can get you in right now." He said and called the doctors. I quickly went into the bathroom. I jumped in a hot shower to clean all the blood off of me. The only thoughts running through my mind were. Did I lose the baby, was that it? Was I not pregnant anymore. Would I not be a mother. Was this over? I cried as I thought about it. Of course it was scary but it was scarier to think I lost the baby.

I stepped out of the shower and wrapped myself in a warm fluffy towel. I quickly brushed through my wet hair and walked back into the bedroom. Harry was taking the sheets off the bed.
"Harry.. What if it's gone." I started to cry again.
"Baby we will figure this out, it's okay." He said as he brought the sheets into the laundry room. I put a pair of running shorts and one of Harry's tshirts on before going into the bathroom and drying my hair. The appointment was at ten which was about an hour and a half from now.

I finished blow drying and straightening my hair when Harry walked in. I decided on no makeup because I hated wearing it. I only wore it if I needed to. Harry liked me better without it anyways.
"Baby." He said and I turned towards him.
"I love you, and no matter what I will always love you and we can get through anything." He said and I kissed him gently.
"I know we will, I love you." I said and he kissed me again.

We went into the kitchen and had a quick breakfast before leaving for the doctors.
We drove in silence. All our emotions were flying around the car.

We finally got to the office and Harry signed us in.
We sat in the waiting room. There were only two other people there so it was completely silent.

After about twenty minutes of my heart pounding and Harry's comforting words the nurse came out.
"Alexa Norris?" She called and Harry and I stood up.
"Hello, last door on the right." She said and we walked down the small hallway. I sat on the table and Harry sat on one of the extra chairs.
"Hello, I'm Kristin. I am going to take a few tests and then your doctor should be in here shortly to share the results." She said and then started a finger prick then had me go into the restroom and pee in a cup. When I came back she took the tests and left.

I was nervously tapping my foot and biting my nails. Harry got up and walked over and sat next to me.
"Shh baby it's okay, don't freak out. I know it's scary but you're strong and you can do it." He said as he pulled me into him. My breathing slowed down and I relaxed against his touch. He knew how to make everything better.

Finally the doctor came in.
"Hi, I'm doctor Hampson." She said as shook both of our hands.
"So your tests came back and yes you were pregnant but I'm so sorry to say but you have lost the baby.." She said and then gave us a moment. Harry got up and came over to my broken self on the table. I was sobbing and Harry comforted me.
"I'll give you two a moment." She said and left the room.
Harry began to sing the song he had written for me. He always did when I was sad. He rubbed circles on my back and I cried into his shirt.
After a few minutes I stopped crying but Harry didn't leave my side. His arm was still around me.
The doctor came back in.
"I know it's hard and I'm so sorry. It was still very very early so there wasn't much development. Were you two planning on having this child, or was it an accident?" She said.
"Accident." Harry responded.
"I see. Well I am so sorry for your loss and I would like to do a follow up in 6 months." She said.

We finally scheduled our next appointment and left the office.
We got home and I just laid in bed and cried. I cried for the loss of life, I cried for relief, but most of all I cried for myself. I had my whole life ahead of me and now that I wasn't pregnant it was all back on track. Harry laid with me and comforted me. I knew he was sad but staying strong for me and I loved him for it.
"Harry, thank you ." I said and looked up at him.
"Of course love, I know this is hard for both of us but this is the best thing and it will all be okay." He said and I knew he was right. We weren't ready and this was the best thing.
I nuzzled into his chest as he turned on the tv. For the rest of the evening we watching reruns of friends and family guy. I finally felt happy and safe and I was happy I had Harry. He always knew what to do and what to say. I love him and he was everything I needed. I would be going back to school soon and working, I know a baby wouldn't have made any of that easier. I promised myself I would call my mom and Haidyn and tell then the sad news and Harry said he would call the boys. We were sad but we knew this wasn't the right time.