slut ; zayn malik

19; Trial

so quick answer to bxtchuguessin 's question to Lucia:

"I'm confused, did someone hurt you in the past or was this someone liam ??"

~ Liam was a small part of it. I've had a few boyfriends after him but nothing ever worked out. I feel like I'm a terrible person because after just a week of being with them I get bored of them and leave them. But whatever, I don't need anyone.

"Again, I'm sorry," Zayn told me as we drove home. He still kept apologizing for that morning.

"Zayn it's fine. Trust me, this may sounds cliché, but it's not you, It's me. I just have issues," I said as I tried to focus on the road.

"What do you mean?" He asked cluelessly.

"Zayn.... I do like you. I'm not gonna deny that my feelings for you are so strong, but.... When I was in past relationships I had this same feeling. I was head over heels for a guy, I was sure things were gonna be different with him, but after a week of dating I'd get bored. It went from feeling like I was in love to feeling like I was being suffocated. Its complicated," I sighed. After letting all these feelings out I felt empty, but satisfied.

"Okay... But how about we don't name us. We just do a sort of test try?" His words were careful and soft as I pulled in to my gate. I punched in the code and it opened.

"I-I don't know, Zayn..." I shook my head.

"Look, I can't pressure you into this," He said as he unbuckled himself, " But it can't hurt to try can it?"

My mind was flooded with thoughts. I definitely did want to try, but at the same time I was worried. But this is Zayn. I trust Zayn.

"O-Okay. Let's try. I said as I put the car in park and turned to him. His eyes filled with a sort of light as his smile engulfed him. I loved the way he smiled. His entire face would crinkle and his eyes just sparkled. It was a mesmerizing sight.