Pure love & the pain {lesbian story}

Chapter 2. 'You?'

It was so cold outside.
Honestly, the moment I left my house, I wanted to cry, because fuck, it was so cold and just, I didn't want to be outside. I wanted to be in my bed, and sleep forever.
After two minutes of me walking through the snow and freezing my ass off, I finally was at the bus stop and had to wait five more minutes for the bus to arrive and just take me to the damn school.
It was boring, to stay there and wait for the bus, so I decided to take my phone out of my bag.
Let me tell you something.
It was a bad idea.
I put my gloves into my bag and got my phone out.
The moment I had the phone in my hand and wanted to unlock it and check Instagram and Twitter, and stuff like that, it slipped right through my fingers and fell into the snow.
It literally made itself a way through the snow.
"Oh my god. Fuck. Why am I so dumb?", I practically yelled at myself, forgeting that other people were in the bus station too.
Not that I'd care, but I'm just saying.
Completely mad and angry at myself I bowed down, and took my phone out of the snow.
It was still living, or at least it seemed like it.
Finally the bus arrived and I got in.
Frustrated and mentally slapping myself I sat down next to Zayn.
Zayn was my male best friend.
"Why the hell am I so fucking stupid? Please explain this to me."
He chuckled lightly and shook his head.
"Jade, you're not stupid. And why are you saying this? What happened?"
The fuck dude, you know I'm stupid. Don't lie to me.
"Forget it. It's not that important anyways. So, are you gonna ask that chick out?
He sighed and looked at me kinda sad.
"Oh, what happened? Tell me.", I said and looked at him concerned.
He started telling me what was wrong, but as usual, just a few things. Tho I still listened to him carefully.
"Well, I don't know if I should ask her out. I don't think I have an actual crush on her. I mean, yeah she's nice and all, but I think I still am in love with...someone else..and I can't just use her to forget..hi...uhm..her..sorry..her.."
I looked at him confused, but I didn't ask him what he meant, he just said it wrong.
I sighed and looked at him with a serious expression.
"Would you mind telling me who that mysterious person is?", I said getting slightly pissed off because he didn't want to tell me.
"We're best friends, you could tell me a bit more, you know. But other than that, yeah you're right, don't use her. Don't ask her out if you don't like her and if you're still into someone else."
You see, the problem is, he is into that special someone for one year now, and he can't get over that person. It's shitty if I'm being honest, because he deserves to be happy with someone who loves him too.
He sighed and answered:"I don't want to tell you who it is, you know that."
I just looked at him disappointed and nodded. Honestly, I  was glad we arrived in front of the school, because I wouldn't have wanted to fight with Zayn.
My day was already bad enough.
We both got out of the bus and I went into the school, while Zayn stayed outside and to talk to a few of his friends.
I went straight to my locker, and got the books, that I needed today, out.
On my way to the class a few boys greeted me and I smiled slightly.
At least there were some boys who talked to me, because like I said, girls didn't really do that.
As I approached my class someone tapped me on my shoulder and when I turned back to see who it was, I was kinda shocked.
Liam was standing right behind me.
"Uhm, can I help you?", I asked him curious and a bit confused.
"Yeah, you can actually. Can we meet up after school? I have to talk to you about something."
I nodded slowly and my brain started to think about why he wanted to talk to me.
"Okay, thank you Jade. We'll meet in front of the school, when classes are over.", he said and with that he was already gone.
How the hell did he know until when, I had classes and if school ends for both of us at the same time.
Confused I went into the class and sat down on my seat in the back of the room.
Jesy, my best friend was already sitting there and she hugged me smiling when I sat down.
"Hii Jadey."
Why does she always have to call me that way, when I told her to not do it, a thousand times already !?
I rolled my eyes and hugged her back.
"Yeah, don't call me like that Jes."
She giggled and said she'd still call me that name, it was just the way she called me, since we were little.
When we were little I didn't mind it, but now it just sounded stupid.
It sounded cute and lovely and basically everything I wasn't.
Really, if you would see me on the street you wouldn't think I'm a cute and lovely person.
I have blue hair. I have a lip piercing, a nose piercing, and one on the tongue.
I have an arm full of tatoos, the right one. I have tattoos on my back, four. And I plan to get some more in the future.
So if someone calls me Jadey it sounds out of place, but I couldn't get Jesy to stop calling me like that.
Well, whatever.
We talked about a few things and then the bell rang.
The teacher came in ten minutes too late, tho it didn't matter anyways, because no one was paying attention.
No one gave a fuck what he was saying.
Me included, I never payed attention. Why should I?
And today I was to deep in thoughts anyways.
What did Liam want to talk to me about? Was it important?
Uhm, duh? If he wants to meet you outside the school, it kinda has to be something important Jade.
I sighed.
Sometimes I was really dumb. Well, actually always.
Sooo, back to why Liam wanted to talk to me.
Was it because he wanted to just be friends with me?
Was it because of Perrie?
Does he know I have a crush on her?
Oh my god. If he does, is he going to tell me to back off? Or will he tell her?
But why would he want me to back off? He wouldn't want that. Because her boyfriend was a fucked up dude, and I'm sure he would rather want me to be with her, than him with her.
I layed my head on the desk and closed my eyes, trying to just sleep and forget it all.
But it wasn't possible.
Liam wanted to talk to me, it was weird.
Him and me never were friends, we never even actually talked. I knew he was there. He knew I was there.
But we didn't talk, we usually didn't even greet each other, we just went by without saying anything.
So I didn't understand why he suddenly had something to tell me.
It had to be about Perrie, and honestly, I didn't want to talk about her with him, I really didn't. I didn't want to talk about her with anyone.
But I already said I would meet him after school and we'll talk.
Damn it.
The teacher said my name and wanted me to do something on the board. Yeah sure.
I didn't look at him, or even bothered to answer, I still had my head on the desk and my eyes closed.
Mr. Johnson said something like "Jade Thirlwall. Detention."
Whatever you say old dude.
When that class passed, I got up and went into the next class.
The day was boring and I couldn't wait for it to be over.
Tho I didn't want to meet up with Liam, when it was over.
After a lot more classes and me having a headache, school was finally over.
I had detention but I never went there. I never sat there like an idiot, doing nothing for a few hours. I might be dumb, but not that much.
They usually then called home and my mum found out, she yelled at me and was mad, but I didn't give a shit. I wouldn't stay in school if I didn't want to.
Anyways, I went to my locker, put my books back and locked it again.
When I got out of the school Liam was standing in front of a black car and I went towards him.
Calm your tits. Everything's gonna be okay.
"Oh. Hi Jade.", he said smiling.
"Hi Liam..", I answered and smiled back. Somehow.
"I hope you don't mind coming over to my place, I want to talk to you in private."
He is a nice guy. He's not gonna rape you. Just. Go.
"No, it's okay. I'm just kinda confused. Because we never actually talked and I don't understand what you want to tell me."
He just looked at me and opened the door for me.
When he got into the car and started driving, he answered.
"It's something, I think you could help me with. And I know we never talk, but that needs to change."
And that's when I relaxed a bit and smiled at him while being excited to know what this is all about.