Pure love & the pain {lesbian story}

Chapter 3. 'WHAT.'

Before I start this chapter, I just wanted to tell you, this story will be written from Jades POV., unless I say otherwise. :) enjoy this chapter, gonna be fun & thanks for reading babes
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After about 7 minutes we arrived in front of a pretty big house.
Liam parked the car and then looked at me slightly smiling.
"Lets go in. My parents aren't here today so I can talk to you, without them disturbing me. They use to always do that when someone's over.", he said.
"Oh, well you make it all sound really important so I'm kinda scared of what's to come."
He laughed quietly and it was a lovely sound.
"You shouldn't be scared, I should be.", he answered me, looking kinda scared already.
I looked at him confused but nodded anyways and followed him into the house.
The moment I entered the house, I was shocked. I mean, the house looked good on the outside, but the inside looked a thousand times better.
They sure were damn rich.
Liam watched me, while I got rid of my shoes and jacket and all that stuff.
"Why are you staring?", I asked chuckling.

"It's just, you are actually really nice, and you seem to be so carefree. I like how you just tell everyone everything straight out in their faces, and how you stand up for yourself. You know, Perrie would actually like you.", he winked at me, when he said the last sentence.
I instantly blushed and looked at him with my eyes wide open and my jaw slightly dropped.
"Fuck. You, you know this? But, I'm keeping my distance so noone notices, how the heck did you get it?"
He knew it. Liam knew that I had a major crush on Perrie.
Well, way to go Jade.
"You can see if someone is in love or not.", he smiled at me and patted my shoulder.
"Did you tell her? And, by the way, thanks for thinking that I'm carefree and nice. And thanks for thinking that I'd be a good match for Perrie, but as far as I'm concerned she's straight as fuck.", I said and tried to smile, but kinda failed, because it made me sad to know I could be with her if I wasn't a girl.
"I wouldn't say it that way. You know, you better talk to her. You never know what could happen, if you don't dare to try and risk. And no, Jade, God no, I would never say something like that to anyone, why would I do something,  that has nothing to do with me.", he said and honestly he was right. Also, I was so glad he didn't tell her. I would never ever go out in public again, if she knew about my crush on her. Or actually if she knew that I'm in love with her.
But other than that.
Liam was wise.
Yep, wise.
I should talk to her.
I should.
But, I won't do it.
I was a coward.
Still, some of the words Liam said echoed in my head, and made me question some things.
"I wouldn't say it that way.", he told me.
How wouldn't you you say it that way?
She was straight, everyone knew that.
Or maybe they don't, but he does, because he's her best friend.
Anyways, I didn't want to talk to him about my feelings.
After all the reason I came here was to help him with a problem.
"However. What did you want to talk with me about?", I finally asked him and looked at him, waiting for an answer.
He looked fucking scared, once again.
"Uhm, yeah, let's go into my room. We're standing here in the hall like idiots."
I didn't even realize that we were still in the hall.
Once again, I nodded and we went upstairs in his room.
When the door was closed he suddenly said:"Oh, sorry I didn't even ask you if you want to eat something or drink a coffee."
I shook my head and answered:"No thanks Liam. Just tell me what happened and what you need."
He sat down on his bed and motioned me to sit down next to him.
I did as asked to and crossed my legs on his bed.
"Sorry, it's just how I'm comfy.", I said and gave him an apologetic look.
He waved it off and looked really unsure on whether to tell me something or not.
So I decided to calm him. It made me feel weird to see him so uncalm, and not at all in his element.
"Look, Liam. I know you don't know me well, but I'm really not going to laugh at you, or tell anyone anything. You wanted to talk to me. So just say it already."
He didn't look at me, he looked at the ground.
"It's not that I don't trust you. I do, I know you're a nice girl and that you'll help me. That's why I wanted to tell you everything. Not even Perrie knows about this. It's just really hard to talk about it, I never did, I kept it all inside me, and now it's weird to let it all out."
I nodded and put my hand on his chin, and slowly put his head up, so he could face me.
Then I gave him a smile and he started talking.
"Okay, so, me and Sophia are dating for a year now, but things aren't the way they used to be.."
He stopped and honestly, I was confused. Why would he talk to me about Sophia, did he want some advice since I was into girls? And why didn't he talk to Perrie about this? It didn't seem like this was some deep topic. And Perrie was his best friend so why wouldn't he tell her, that he had relationship problems with Sophia?
"Before you start asking yourself why I'm telling you this and other stuff, this is just the beginning."
Of course.
He started talking again.
"There are a lot of reasons, why we don't really work anymore. First of all, she hasn't got enough time for us. Secondly, I kinda changed, in a way I never thought I would. Also, we just fight a lot, for no actual reasons, and it's annoying. We fight everyday, doesn't matter if in person, over the phone, or while texting. It's just not the way it used to be."
It was quite sad actually, to see him this broken.
He let his guard down, it seemed like the walls around him, broke down, he wasn't that smiling boy, that always cheered others up and helped them.
He looked like a broken boy.
But it was amazing to know he opened up to me.
He needs your help dumbass, so he tells you the shit you need to know, for you to help him.
The little voice in my head honestly pissed me off.
I just tell you the truth.
Shut the fuck up.
I hugged Liam and when I sat back down again, he had tears welling up in his eyes.
"And, you know, I said I changed. I did, it's unbelieveable for me, it's too much, overwhelming really."
I listened carefully.
To be honest, I had a feeling I knew where this was going to.
And if I was right, then I understand what he means perfectly.
"I discovered that I also like boys Jade. And I honestly don't know how to feel about this."
I gasped.
I mean, I knew this was coming.
That's what I thought.
But it still surprised me.
"Oh, Liam, it's nothing bad. I know how this feels. I forced myself to like boys, when I knew that I liked girls. I was just too scared to admit it to myself. But really, you don't have to feel ashamed, or bad. And now it's okay if you break up with Sophia. I even think it's better. You kinda need some time to work through this alone. This is a difficult but beautiful and important time in your life. You need to take the right steps and you need to take them slowly, one by one.", I said and looked at him with a look that was calming. At least, I thought so. Some people told me I had that look.
He whiped his tears away and nodded slowly.
"Thank you Jade. You're right. I thought about it like that, I really need to sort things out on my own. But even with Sophia gone, I won't be able to do it. You see, another reason to why things don't work between me and her anymore is, that I'm just not really in love with her anymore. I like a boy. For two months now."
Oh, well that makes his situation ten times more difficult.
It's hard to sort things out with your heart already belonging to a boy. And also with you being in a relationship with a girl you don't love anymore.
"This makes things harder.", I said and I know I'm dumb for saying stuff like that, when he's already scared enough.
But I wanted to be honest. I didn't want to get his hopes up. It would only crush him even more, when things wouldn't work out the way he wanted them to.
He sighed and looked at me sad.
"I know.", he answered.
Of course he does. He's Liam. He's wise. Never forget that.
I looked at him, and thought about what I should say next to him.
"You have to break up with Sophia as soon as possible, first of all. Then please stay away from that guy, whoever he is. At least for a few weeks, or actually for when you're ready to come out as a bisexual person, and you're ready to tell him you like him. Please don't jump into a relationship with him."
He looked at me shocked.
"I'm sorry if this sounds harsh Liam, but I'm just telling you what's best to do in such a situation."
He nodded.
"I will do as you said, I mean I will try. I'm meeting Sophia tomorrow, and I'm going to break up with her. I don't know how, but I will. Then I will just come out to my family, it'll take me some time, but I will do it. They will know it first, well you did first but, you know what I mean. And then I'll tell Perrie and my best friends, Harry and Louis. After that I think the rest of the school will get it somehow."
Oh, so Louis and Harry were his best friends. Sure.
Wait are Louis and Harry friends too? Well, they have to be, if they are Liams besties. Oh my god. Larry is real. They are surely dating. I need to see them kiss or fuck. Both. Yeah. Both. And then I'll film it.
I was ripped out of my thoughts when Liam talked again.
"And also. I can't even try to have a relationship with that guy. Believe me. He is straight as fuck."
I chuckled, because I knew how it felt to be in love with someone who was straight.
"Just as Perrie.", I said.
He rolled his eyes.
Is he messing with my poor little heart, and giving me hopes that she might also be bi?
"Also will you tell me who the lucky guy is or will you be like my best friend Zayn and not tell me stuff like that? He always does this. He has a crush on someone for about a year now and he is an asshole and doesn't want to tell me who it is. If you don't want to tell me who it is, it's okay, you're not my best friend. But he is, since forever.", I ranted like an idiot.
"Sorry."
He looked really scared, again.
"Okay, you don't want to tell me. I get it."
He shook his head.
"No, no, I'll tell you, it's the main reason I asked you to come over anyway."
Now. I was really, really confused.
"Oh, okay..", I said.
What the hell is about to come...
"Uhm, I thought you could tell me if he could possibly like me, so I know if there's room for hope or not.", he sounded really sad again.
I motioned him to go on.
"I'm kinda, you know, falling for, uhm, your best friend..Zayn.."
I choked on my saliva and stared at him.
Oh fuck.
"You, you have a crush on Zayn?"
He nodded.
"I, I ..I ..it just happened. I know he is straight and stuff, but.."
"So basically I'm in love with your best friend and you're in love with mine.", I interrupted him.
"It seems so.", he replied. "I know it's stupid, Zayn is too perfect anyways, and he has a crush on someone else already.", he said.
And then my brain made that click. You know, when you finally get something.
He said him, instead of her, he said he is in love with 'someone' for a year now, this morning to me. Zayn is gay. Oh my god. He doesn't want to go on a date with any girl, because he is into boys, and he wasn't ready to tell me.
"Zayn said something like..he is in love with hi..and then he corrected himself to her..he said he can't date anyone else because he is in love with someone else for a year now. And he means a boy. I'm sure now.", I said to Liam.
Liams jaw dropped.
"And he could be in love with you Liam. There is hope."
My best friend is into guys.
Nice one.
I smiled widely.
"I need to get you two together and then I need to get Larry together.", I didn't realize I said the Larry part out loud.
And he asked me already what the hell I meant.
"Larry?"

Uhm.

"I ship Louis and Harry together. And that's their ship name."

He smiled.

"Me too."

That's my soulmate. Liam is my soulmate.

Also, it was nice to see how his eyes were shining with hope and love...for Zayn. He was sad, yes, you could see it on his face. But he was in love.
That love mend his heart.
It fixed him.
It made the pain he was suffering less.
And I was happy.
Because I knew with Zayn in Liams arms, he could finally be happy.
My best friend would be actually happy.