Pure love & the pain {lesbian story}

Chapter 8. 'Secret.'

First of all I'd like to thank you for over 400 reads..that's awesome. Love you. Enjoy this chapter, 'cause Jerrie is starting to happen babes. xo Also we're back to Jades Pov. Like usually.
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I absolutely couldn't calm myself down after she asked me what had happened and who had done that to me, especially when she looked so angry while asking me.

She looked like she could have punched someone because of the way I looked.

And I couldn't help but feel so happy because she seemed so concerned.

No Jade, don't let your guard down.
That's what I told myself as I thought about how I was actually in love with her and that I couldn't just give in to her. It was too risky for me. She couldn't find out that I loved her, I didn't want her to find out.

So when I got my shit back together I replied, with a slightly harsh voice.

"Why would I tell you that?"

I bit my lip and shook my head, but she didn't see that, as I realized that my harsh tone, kind of hurt her.

Her next reply made my heart warm up in a complete different way.

But I told myself that I had to remain stone cold towards her.

That's why our conversation ended pretty fast and pretty shitty.

My mind was made up on not talking to Perrie at all, but that quickly changed as I saw Josh approach her.

I clenched my fists together and slammed my locker shut.

You know what? Fuck the 'not talking to her' part. Go talk to her.

I watched them talk, or more like her being uncomfortable, listening to him say things to her and having him touch her, hugging her, holding her.

Anger was boiling inside of me and my brain didn't even think twice before I grabbed her arm softly and pulled her back, the moment he was out of sight.

My voice was stern but somehow on the verge of cracking and showing all the emotions that were flowing through me.

"Do you still want to talk?", I asked, my eyes peering into hers, trying to read what she was thinking, what she was feeling, and I was relieved to see that she seemed to be pleased that I was willing to talk to her after all.

She replied fast and we decided that she would come over to my place.

I had no idea that, that wasn't a very great idea and that it would go wrong, in some ways.

My heart was beating fast, as I let go of her arm and our ways parted, us going to different classes.

That's when my brain kicked in again and started cussing me out.

Jesus Christ, what the fuck did you just get yourself into? You're in fucking love with her, and she will figure it out, 'cause I'm damn sure you can't hide it in front of her. You couldn't even hide it in front of Liam. If Liam knows, who else knows? What if she already knows? No, she wouldn't talk to you if she knew.