In Spite of All the Danger (Paul McCartney fanfiction)

Chapter 24: My Valentine

It's September 2, 1960, a year since I met the love of my life, now my husband of course and the father of my daughter. Paul slept with his arm wrapped around me, I wanted to get up to throw up cause I felt sick. I didin't want to wake him though. 

"I love you... I love you... I love you.." I whispered as I kissed his chest lightly not waking him. I slid out of his arm careful not to wake him up. He did wake up. It was only 7am I was on the clock as I ran to the bathroom. I threw up in  the toilet, I wasn't sick exactly. I was hiding something from Paul that I found out a few days ago. I lost my train of thought as I heard him knock at the door.

"Dan? You okay in there?" He asked with concern in his voice.

"Yeah... yeah I'm fine," I said my voice shaking. I had to tell him, I didn't know if I should now or later. I had a feeling in my gut that it should be sooner more than later. I opened the door and walked into his arms. 

"Happy anniversary, babe," He said holding me in his arms. I smiled a little into his chest, I took a deep breath I knew I had to tell him now.

"Paul... the other day I found out.. I'm pregnant," I whispered into his chest, my voice cracked. Tears fell down my face. I didn't know really what to think of it. We just had Mary, how could we deal with another baby on the way?

"What?" He asked pulling me away a little from his chest. I left wet marks from my tears on his shirt. "How? You.. you just had Mary.. Mary's not even 3 months old yet.. how are.. when how just how?" Tears just kept streaming down my face I didn't know what how to answer really anything. 

"I don't know.." I said, it barely made it out of my mouth. "I'm sorry,"

"Don't apologize.. it's not your fault.. it's mine I got you pregnant again. But I guess.. everything will be okay.. we'll deal with it. Wow.. we got another baby on the way.." He said his face completely white he took my hand brought me back to bed with him. "I never thought it would be this soon... I thought in a couple years not 2 months.." 

"Well we have about 9 months to go.." I said as he rubbed my stomach a little.

"Did you go to the doctor?"

"Yeah.. that's how I know I really am pregnant they took a test.. it came back positive," A few tears fell from eyes, he wiped them away.

"Don't cry.. I'm happy just extremely surprised.." He said as I started to cry. 

"I really don't know what to think about it honestly.." I said into his chest, "So you are really happy?"

"Yeah I am.. why wouldn't I be?" He smiled nervously, I could tell something was wrong. 

"Come on, Paul.. I know you.. you can't hide anything from me," I said looking up at him as he sighed.

"It's not that I'm not happy it's just that.. I don't know if I can handle Mary being so young and then now having another baby," He said leaning his head on mine.

"I know what you mean. I don't really know how I feel about it.. like of course I want the baby but it's just you know so much to think about," I said closing my eyes leaning my head on his chest.

"I know... well let's keep our minds off it for now, I have a surprise for you later," He whispered in my ear. His warm breath against my neck just made everything a little better. I smiled to myself into his chest.  We slowly went back to sleep, but I couldn't get my mind off the thought now of having another baby.

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I woke up and saw Paul with Mary at the changing table. I smiled a little to myself, he really was a good dad though. It reminded me for some reason of the days before Mary when were just starting to go out. How protective he was of me, of course he still is but just how safe I felt in his arms. How our first kiss felt, how it felt when we first had sex, how he made me feel when Rob died. I could never love anymore than I love him ever. He turned around and saw me watching him. He was holding Mary who was just looking up at him, she has her little hand on his chest.