In Spite of All the Danger (Paul McCartney fanfiction)

Chapter 15: Two of Us

"So how's everything been with you, Danielle?" Dr. Schick asked as I walked in and sat on her couch. I had just went through a crap day at school, I couldn't wait to go home with Paul. I just shrugged she knew something was wrong since I last talked with her.

"Well.. I found out on Saturday.. which was my birthday, that Rob killed himself. No one ever shot him," I said with tears in my eyes. "I had to find this out on my birthday.. my birthday. I hated my birthday so much it was terrible because of it the only good point was.." I had just remembered Paul singing to me when I woke up. I hadn't really thought of it in the past few days.

"Was when?" She asked looking at me concerned. I shrugged a little as a tear fell from my eye, I grabbed a kleenex to wipe it.

"When I woke up.. Paul sang be a song.. a song he wrote for me. It was just amazing, it was the most beautiful song I ever heard. And it was for me," I said smiling a little remembering all the little movements he made as he sang it. The feelings I had as I heard him sing to me, how I felt just watching him. "The feeling he gave me.. I knew really I found the perfect guy for me. He loves me no matter what, he's always there," 

"I've seen from the first time we talked that Paul always seems to be the bright spot when the things are getting rough for you. Don't ever let him go," She said rubbing my arm. I smiled knowing it was true that Pauk was the best part of my life. 

"He really is the best part of my life, he knows how to make sure I'm happy. To make me feel better even when I feel like it's impossible he proves it again," I smiled holding my necklace, I constantly did that when I thought about him. "I would never think about letting him go, he's the only guy I could ever see myself with," 

"Are you guys planning on getting married soon?" She asked me looking down at my ring from Paul. 

"Yeah," I sighed out of nervousness. "Yeah, in June.. it's not going to be big or anything just in the courthouse," I didn't really look at her, I hadn't really told anyone how I was nervous about the wedding and baby.

"You seem nervous.. are you nervous about marrying Paul? He's the love of your life isn't he?" She asked I looked out the window at the rain outside that seemed like it would never stop.

"Yeah he is.. I'm not exactly nervous about marrying him. I'm more nervous about what's coming in July," I said looking down at my stomach, I was nervous, really nervous but I didn't want to tell Paul.

"You're normal for when the baby comes?" She asked me, I shook my head. "It's normal to be nervous when you're having your first baby, especially when you're so young like you and Paul," I swallowed hard in my throat I rubbed my stomach as I looked up at her.

"I know it's just.. I haven't told Paul I'm nervous.. because.. because well he's so excited and I just don't want him to think I'm not. I am I'm just nervous about when the baby is born.. that I'm not going to know what to do or something," I said starting to cry, "I just feel like I'm not going to be able handle being a mother. That my daughter is going to end up like my family is.. broken," 

"You're going to be a great mother.. you're daughter is going to be a great kid you and Paul are going to do great with her. Wait you're having a girl? When'd you find out?" She said smiling sympathetically. I started to smile when she asked me about having a girl, I forgot I didn't tell her.

"Yeah, Paul's pretty excited about that.. we found out the other day, Friday," I said playing with my fingers a little.

"Are you excited though?" She asked me, I shrugged a little I knew the answer.

"Yes, it's just.. I'm nervous. I'm excited for the baby, I'm excited that we're having a girl but I had said I'd love it either way. Paul was really hoping for a girl not that he wouldn't love it if we were having a boy though. He just really wanted a girl," I said holding my stomach a little. 

"Yeah I'm not surprised he wanted a girl.. he probably wants a daddy's girl," She laughed a little, I smiled because she was right.

"He does, he really does," I laughed thinking about Paul, "He is so cute and lovable, he's going to be the perfect dad,"

"You have to bring him in for me to meet him when you have the baby, I need to meet both of them," She said as I stood up it was time to go, I had to get home to Paul. 

"Yes I will definitely!" I said smiling as I walked out into the waiting room and outside. It was a little cold and it was raining still. I couldn't wait to get home to Paul, I was wishing he was there to keep me warm.

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Paul had went to the store for a few things for the baby while I was with Dr. Schick. He was so proud of the things he bought he kept showing them off to me.

"Isn't this so cute?" He showed me the bedding for the crib for the millionth time since I had gotten home. I rolled my eyes and kissed him, he smiled. 

"Of course Paul, for the millionth time it's adorable," I said putting my hands around him and on to his butt. He laughed when I started to rubbing his butt, "You have the cutest butt," I laughed as he pulled me into bed. I just sat on top of him while he layed down on the bed. I drew shapes on his chest a little with my fingers. He just smiled up at me as he held my waist. 

"You know like 2 months from today we'll be married?" He said running his hands up and down my back. I got shivers up and down my spine as he just kepting running his hands.

"Wow I know.. and we'll be out of school finally," I said looking out the window at the rain. 

"Is there something wrong, love?" Paul asked me as I looked back down at him. I sighed knowing I had to tell him sooner or later.

"Well.. I was talking with Dr. Schick today about the baby and well.. there's something I haven't told you," I gulped in my throat he looked at me concerned I figured might as well get it over with, "I'm nervous as hell for the baby, it's been the most nerve racking thing I've gone through. I didn't want to tell you because.."

"It's fine darling, you know I'm nervous as hell too. I didn't want to tell you either.. I didn't want to you to lose hope or anything in me. I'm so excited but I still have worries that I won't be able to be the dad I want to be," He said as I got off from on top of him and sat next to him on the bed. "I've been nervous since you told me we were having a baby, I just didn't want to show it,"

"You'll be a great dad, don't worry we're in this together," I said as he smiled a little as he rubbed my stomach a little. I put my hand on there too with him. "This baby she is going to be loved so much really, and that's just by us. Imagine John, George, Jenny, Charlie and Sylvia too this kid's got a great family,"

"I know I love her so much already and then when we go back to England we have my family too," He said as he kept rubbing my stomach. I looked down at him, he never really told me much about his family besides his parents. "I have my dad you know of course, then my step mom, my brother who is a few years younger than me and then my step sister who's like really younger than me," 

"Wow you never told me about them at least you have a family, I can be apart of," I said running my hands a little through his hair. 

"Of course, I've told my dad about you and my brother they think you're good for me," He smiled because he already knew that . 

"Do they know about the baby and us getting married?" I asked him a little worried. He sighed a little and just kept rubbing my stomach.

"Yeah," He yawned, "Yeah they're happy for us, my dad.. when I told him I got you pregnant he told me you better be planning on marrying that girl. I told him of course because I've never loved anyone as much as I love you," I blushed a little, I always did whenever he said how much he loved me. 

"Well at least your dad is okay with it," I said laying down next to him. "And I've never and I never will love anyone as much as you," I kissed him cheek lightly, he pulled me closer and started to kiss my lips lightly. 

"Goodnight, my love," He said holding me in his arms as we started drifting to sleep. I heard his breathing and felt his heartbeat, it calmed me down more than anything.