It's been 6 months since I moved in with my dad and the last of my cuts have finally scarred over. Jasper, Alice and I are inseparable. I had been right about Edward all along. My birthday was a week ago and I got hurt. He was going to attack me but made it seem like Jasper was going to. But I knew better. Alive explained some things to me and I figured a few things out. 1- bloodless is an emotion, 2- I am Edwards bloodsinger, and 3- I'm Jasper's mate. Or at least I think I am. I have this pull in my chest that goes away when I'm around him, if he's to far away it's like part of me is missing, it hurts. Alice says Jasper doesn't know what his feelings even mean just that he's drawn to me. I got hurt really bad at my party and now Edward said we need to leave, he claims we're mates when we're not. Peter and Charlotte moved up here temporarily to teach me how to use my gifts about 4 months ago and their coming along really well. I can project my shield onto other people, I can live my shield off of myself, I can use it as a weapon, and I've also learned that I can absorb gifts. The only people other than me and my teachers that know are Alice and my dad. My dad has always known of vampires, mostly because he is one but he has the ability to appear human. Dads been a vampire for almost 200 years, since he can appear human he can have kids that aren't hybrids. Dad said he was gonna turn me on my birthday but after everything that happened he wants to wait, he also wants my mate to be the one to change me or the Volturi. See my dad was actually born in Italy, he's part of the Volturi. We're taking a trip there this summer. The Cullen's have been acting strange the last couple of days, Alice said that because Edward said we're mates that he gets to decide what's best for me. And since Edwards the golden boy everyone believes him. Alice said Jasper doesn't want to talk to me anymore because he has to leave and it hurts enough as it is. Alice told me to pretend to be inlove with Edward since Edward was pretending to be my mate to get my blood. I agreed but kissing him was disgusting. Peter and Charlotte returned to Texas a week ago because they couldn't teach me anything else.
I break out of my thoughts as I pull up to the house to see Edward leaning against his Volvo. I take off my helmet and hang it from the handle bars.
"What are you doing here?" I ask confused, I had thought he left already.
"Take a walk with me?" He asks more like demands, softly and I follow him into the forest.
"Bella we're leaving." He says bluntly and I smirk in my head.
"I need to tell Charlie." I say still pretending.
"No Bella, I mean my family and myself. I don't want you to go with us." He says.
"You... Don't want me?" I ask slowly, he's playing on my insecurities knowing I hate being alone.
"No, I never loved you, I just wanted you for myself so no one else could, it was easier than I thought. Your so gullible. Your just my pet. No one in my family loves you either, they hate you actually." He says coldly.
"Nice to know. I guess this changes things." I murmur softly.
"Well that's what I wanted so bye." He says and I get angry.
"What? That's all you have to say to me?" I snap grabbing him. He turns toward me with black eyes and back hands me causing me to fly into a tree and black out.
When I come too I'm laying in bed with my friend Jacob sleeping in a chair beside me. I reach out and slap him lightly to wake him up.
"What happened?" I ask.
"Sam found you passed out in the woods with a gash on the back of your head and a broken arm." He says gently and I sigh.
"Of course. Well at least I graduated so no more school." I say shrugging.
We talk for a while before he goes home and I pull out my phone and text Alice.
-Edward hit me.
I don't get a response. After a while I fall back asleep with an empty feeling in my chest, like someone ripped my heart out. I wake up screaming and crying causing dad to run in and hold me while I cry.
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It's been 3 years since everyone left. The only one ive heard from is Alice. She keeps me updated on everyone. They all miss me, exceot Edward of course who found his mate in Tanya Denali. I stayed in Forks while dad went back to Italy. I own my own store, it's a music and book store in one. My friends Angela, Josh, Daniel, Sarah, and Emerald work there. Dad left me the house, and Alice visits sometimes thinking about them still hurts a lot because I still have a hole in my chest like my heart is missing. Every now and then I'll break down. I had a boyfriend after they left buy he beat me and taped me and left me pregnant. I had a little girl 9 months later. I named her Carlie Rose Swan. She is 1 and a half. And she is the most beautiful baby girl, she has his black hair and green eyes like Charlie's eyes were when he was human. The pack takes care of her while I work and do classes since I promised dad I would go to College I take online classes. I have 3 PhDs, science, mathematics, and engineering I also have a degree in Business. I going for my Psychology degree. I don't get out much anymore I mostly just go to work, the store and stay home.
I close my laptop and sigh. I go make some hot chocolate before going outside and sitting on the steps. I feel tears prick my eyes as I think about them, about him. It wasn't until after they left that I realized I was inlove with him, my best friend. It wasn't long before I finished my hot chocolate but I didn't move. I felt my phone start ringing and answer it.
"It's Bella." I murmur through the tears.
"Look up." She says and I do as told to see him standing by my bike and drop my phone in shock.
"Jasper?" I breathe questioningly the empty feeling in my chest suddenly disappearing.
"Hi Bella" He says softly and I launch myself at him and he catches me easily, hugging me tightly. When he puts me down I glare at him and use my shield to hit him causing him to fly back.
"You ASS you promised!" I shriek finally losing it. He picks himself up off the ground slowly.
"Bella please." He begs as I turn my back on him. I pick up my phone.
"Alice I'll call you later, I have to kill your brother." I snap dangerously.
"Don't hurt him to bad B. Listen to what he has to say first." She says gently before hanging up.
"You have 5 minutes." I say calmly going inside and he follows me in closing the door behind him.
"I broke my phone, and before you say anything I really did break it, and then I was so upset and in so much pain that I slipped, Edward being golden boy said I had to leave the coven because human blood went against everything we believed in or some Shit like that. Carlisle said I needed to leave buy I could return if I got a handle on myself. I want to come back here but then I ran into Maria on my way to see Peter and Charlotte and I got pissed and I killed her then I had to kill her damn mate and the rest of her army. Then the Volturi requested to see me and I couldn't say no. I never meant to hurt you. And I had every intention on coming back here, but Edward was still claiming you as his mate and told me I wasn't allowed near you because I almost killed you. Which made everything worse. I was already hurting, a pull formed the second we left town and I didn't know what it meant. The farther away we got the more pain I felt. I stopped hunting, I locked myself in my room and did nothing, literally nothing. Alice practically drug me out of the house about a month ago saying that what I was doing to myself wasn't right and that I needed to hunt or some Shit I wasn't listening to. I lose control and the major came out and-" He cuts off dry sobbing and I kneel infront of him.
"Jasper?" I ask gently.
"I'm sorry Bella, I almost killed you." He dry sobs and I use my gift to hit him again but only enough to shake him.
"Now that's enough of that! Edward is not and never was my mate! I'm not stupid Jasper, Alice and I just wanted to have a little fun. He wanted me as a meal and I wanted to break him. Bloodlust is an emotion Jasper. You had the bloodless of 6 other vampires including your own to deal with! Adding to that I am Edwards bloodsinger which will double his bloodlust. He was going to drain me. And when he realized you would know he sent all his bloodlust at you and you lost control I don't blame you for that. And don't give me the phone shit you went and bought a new one immediately if Alice didn't have one waiting already. All I asked was that you kept in touch if you left. And you didn't. I know you had a hard time Alice told me." I say softly when he looks down at me.
"I still tried to kill you." He murmurs guiltily.
"Don't make me kick your assets Jasper Whitlock." I threaten and he cracks a smile.
"I missed you Bella." He admits.
"And I missed you. Where are you staying and how long are you here?" I ask quietly.
"Nowhere and until you tell me to go. Alice told me to follow the pull in my chest and it brought me back here. She wouldn't tell me what the pull meant." He says.
"Your staying here then." I say as someone knocks on my door. I go open it to see Jake holding my little girl.
"Thanks Jake. I'll take her." I say gently taking her from him and he glares at the living room.
"Who is it?" He demands and I sigh.
"It's Jasper." I admit and Jake snarls.
"What the heel did he come back here for? After what he did to you?" He snarls and starts shaking.
"Jacob if you phase you could hurt me and Carlie. And he didn't know. Now go home I'll call you tomorrow." I say calmly as he forces himself to calm down.
"Whatever." He starts and leaves. I sigh and look at the sleeping Carlie.
"Let's get you to bed." I murmur softly.
"I'll be back down in a minute Jasper." I say softly before taking Carlie up to my room and changing her before putting her in her crib. I kiss her forehead and go back downstairs.
"Who was that?" He asks curiously.
"Jacob just dropped off Carlie." I say slowly.
"I know. Who's Carlie?" He asks and I sigh.
"We'll get to that. Let's sit and talk for a bit." I say quietly.
"Bella what happened to you? You seem like an empty shell." He says quietly sitting beside me on the couch after I get more hot chocolate.
"My mate left me and I never heard from him." I say calmly and he stares at me sadly.
"Tell me what happened." He says.
"You know what happened before you left. Everyone was gone before Edward was and he used my insecurities against me. How he knew about them I have no idea. He led me into the forest to 'talk' told me you were leaving, being the good person I was I said I needed to tell Charlie not actually thinking of g9ing with him anyway. He proceeded to tell me that I was just his toy, and that all of you hated me. I got angry and lashed out for about 2 seconds before he hit me so hard I flew into a tree cutting my head open and landed on the ground on my side breaking my arm. I woke up the next morning at home with a cast on my arm and a bandage covering my head wound. I was okay for a day or two, school had already let out as we graduated 3 days before all this happened. I refused to think about that day not wanting to relive it. When it finally sank in I lost it. It felt like someone ripped my heart from my chest and left me to die. I was in so much pain. I broke down, I couldn't eat, or sleep. I never left my room except to use the bathroom. I was comatose. Alice never contacted me after the text I sent her the night Edward left. It was like you never existed, I'm pretty sure that's what he wanted. I don't know what happened. I just...... Snapped out of it about 5 months later. I remember thinking that if you were here you would kill me for acting the way I was. I started online classes for college, I met up with Angela and we went out, I met a boy, Andrew, we went out for 2 months, nothing serious more like a distraction. A much needed distraction. Angela always said something was off about him and I knew she was right I just didn't particularly care anymore. I didn't care about anything. I felt nothing. For anyone or myself. I tried killing myself a few times before giving up. Andrew ended up beating me and raping me. Go figure with my past right. Charlie left when I snapped out of my comatose state, saying he was needed back home. I opened up a business shortly after the Andrew incident as I call it. Found out I was pregnant. Andrew had disappeared, Peter and Charlotte came to my rescue and helped me through the pregnancy as I hadn't been talking to the pack. They left though after I had her. That's pretty much it except I have 4 degrees and I'm working on my 5th. Alice started getting in touch we me just after Andrew. Told me how everyone was doing. She sent some stuff for Carlie from both her and Rose. Carlie is my daughter. She's a year and a half old." I say finishing up and he stares at me blankly.
"I'm sorry Bella." He says honestly.
"Don't it doesn't matter." I say calmly but look around.
"Something's wrong." I say suddenly standing and looking around.
"What do you mean?" He asks.
"Some one is trying to breach my shield. My mental shield extends farther than my physical shield. Someone passed my mental shield." I say going to the door.
