In Days and Time

Castiel still couldn't believe the words spewing out of Dean' mouth. He could hear his heart beat and he felt his eyes start welling with water. Dean leaned over and wrapped his jacket around Cas,

"He said by the time we will get back here we will be juniors is high school...."

Cas sniffled a little then perked his head up,

"You'll be coming back though! That's the main thing! I can wait for you..."

Dean kissed the top of his head and sighed a little

"Cas, that's quite of but of time...it's going to be a little awkward by that time..."

Cas frowned at him and pulled away,

"You're saying you won't wait aren't you!?"

His ocean blue eyes started filling up with water again and Dean' heart shattered,

"I never said that, I'm saying maybe we just have to stay friends and just keep in touch till we come back...."
Dean softly said, trying not to anger up the smaller boy again, seeing his eyes fill with glistening tears hurt Dean badly.
"But I don't WANT to be just friends!!" Castiel's voice cracked. The one person, who had ever meant so much to him, who actually cares for him... Was leaving, and wanted to 'stay friends' till he came back. Cas couldn't do that! He loved Dean! It would hurt to much to be 'just friends'.
"I know, I know...but Cas you don't know what might happen between here then now..."

"I don't care!!"

"Cas you don't get it it hurts me too!! I don't want to be dating you if I can't see you! I'll miss you too much...I've never missed anyone when we've moved before..."

"So now you can't miss me..? Is that so 'not cool' of you to miss me!?"

Cas shot up from where he was sitting, clenching his fists in anger and frustration, he wiped his eyes of tears but the kept overflowing down onto his soft cheeks.

"No! Of course I'll miss you no matter what! But-"

"No no I get it. This was all a prank, this whole dating me thing huh!?"
Cas knew what he was saying wasn't true. He knew Dean would never do such a thing...he just needed any reason to get mad at him, so maybe he himself, would not miss this blonde hair, and bright Apple green eyed boy so much.

"Castiel you know I'd never do such a thing."
This time dean shot up, but not out of anger but just agony. He was completely heart broken. Sure he had dated several girls before, but it was always the same thing, they go out, kiss once, break up. Never had he loved someone like this, Cas meant so much to him, even if it had been not even a year.

Castiel looked down and his shoes and sniffled
"I know dean...I don't want to let you go..."

"I don't want to let you go either...but...but we have to. I'm coming back remember...? We just have to keep in touch."

"And what if we don't?"

"Don't doubt I won't have you in the back of my mind when I show up at this place again"

"Junior year you said...?"

Dean nodded

Cas started counting how many years on his fingers between now, and then, he then raised his hand up with four fingers up in the air.
"That's four years..."

"See, it's not that long."

"Without you, it will feel like a life time."
Dean walked closer to Cas and pulled him into a hug, not just the normal, tight squeeze hug, this one had more meaning, like all the warmth and love was pouring out into his hug, surrounding Cas, melting his heart.
Cas hugged back, with just the same night Dean did. Cas could hear the sniffling coming from Dean, and sometimes little squeaks. Cas felt so bad, Dean and him both had the same pain, but for some reason, he felt like Dean was hitting it worse. Maybe because Dean had never experienced this feeling of...loss? ...loneliness...? Either way, it was like Cas could feel his hear aching through his chest.
Dean held on for a while before letting go and instantly pulling the small boy into a kiss
A light delicate kiss to be exact, with more passion, than lust or excitement. Cas' soft lips pressed against Deans lightly, and he pulled away.
Dean then looked down and sighed, wiping his eyes.
"We can wait, or we can just, let things happen...but when I get back, we go back to this...?"

Cas nodded a little,
"That sounds fine, Dean."

Dean looked up at Cas, and stared into his eyes, they were as blue as the Atlantic Ocean, so calm, and peaceful looking. The sun making the boys hair look shiny, making every feature look so soft, and delicate to the touch. Dean began to erupt with joy, a smile crept upon his face, and he smiled brightly, yet tears began to flow from his eyes again.
"I'm so lucky, I even got to meet you."
He began to chuckle a little, Castiel, unable to resist smiling because of Dean, began to chuckle a little too, and cry as well.
"I'm even luckier, Dean..."

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That evening, Cas went over to Deans to help them pack. Cas didn't even care he was making the process faster for them, he was there, with Dean, with this boy who gave him the chance he needed to still have hope.

Deans father put the last box in the moving van, by then it was past midnight.
Dean set up air mattresses on the floor of the now empty house, they decided they would leave in the morning do to how late it was already. Cas spent the night as well, and curled up on the mattress that was in Deans now empty, and quiet room. Dean walked in and laid down closely next to him, grabbing on of his hands to hold tightly through the night. Cas let out a heavy sigh and took off his glasses and set them on the floor next to the mattress. He clenched Deans hand, and cuddled up to him more.

"Dean...?"

"Yes Cas...?"

"...I love you..."

Cas could see see the smile on deans face through the darkness,

"Cas?"

"Yes Dean?"

"I love you too."

That's all that Cas needed to hear, before he drifted off to sleep, next to this boy, that was only a dream before.