Chapter 4
"Now take my hands and we will run away."
I walked into the restaurant, taking a seat and covering my face with the menu. They had a special table in the back for celebrities, and it felt nice to be able to not worry about being bombarded by fans. While I loved them, sometimes I just needed to be able to hold a normal conversation. Today, this was even more important.
I looked up when I heard someone sit in the booth. Nick was shaking out his hair, taking off his beanie and looking at me. 'Is Harry okay?" he asked, and I sighed. I figured he would know this was about Harry since I never would have called him otherwise. I started to say he's fine, but tears stung my eyes. I turned my head to the side, slowly shaking it.
"He...He's alive. That's...better than...." I leaned my elbows on the table, my head falling between my hands. He put his hand on my forearm to comfort me, and I had to take a few breaths before I could even begin to tell him. i had no clue how he was going to react, or if he would even be able to help.
I explained everything to him. From finding the blog, to seeing the cuts. I broke down, sobbing as I told the story. I wasn't exactly an emotional person, but this was one of those things that anyone would cry over. I didn't look at him the entire time, but when i finally did glance up I saw him wiping at his eyes.
"I...I expected something like....like this. I just didn't think it was this...Serious." He looked in my eyes, and we both just sat there as the waitress set our food down. I stared at the food, not hungry at all. In fact, i felt if I ate I would just regurgitate it all. I rubbed my head, before finally asking the important question.
"What do we do?" We stared at eachother, until he suddenly jumped a bit. "Harry isn't the kind of...he doesn't listen to logic. You need to get him right in the heart. I would say to tell him he has to live for his family or the fans...But...He-he's probably past the guilt of that." He said, and I nodded. It made sense. Harry always followed his heart before anything else.
"I....Maybe you should make a blog." He suggested, and I rolled my eyes. "What would that help anything?" I took a sip of my beer, hoping it would relax me but it was just making me even more jittery. He put his hand on top of mine, causing me to look up at him. "I'm serious."
"If you make a blog...Maybe he'll liaten if some kind stranger on the internet says it's worth living. If you and me were enough to make him want to live, then he wouldn't have tried to off himself already." I flinched, but took in every word he said as he said it. "I don't care if you have to send him 3,000 messages. I'll make an account too. But I am always busy.....I.... "
I nodded, pating his hand. We both sat in silence, just staring down at our food as if one of us might actually eat it. We didn't even bother to ask for a box once we left, me paying the bill. I slipped on my jean jacket, heading out the back door and looking to Nick. "Thank you for....for everything. Keep in touch, I'll...I'll see how this goes."
Nick nodded, but grabbed my wrist before I left. "Don't leave him alone. I'll try to spend time with him but...You live with him. Don't let him be alone for too long." I nodded, hesitating before hugging him tightly. He rubbed my back, nodding. "I know...I know. I've lost a friend to......Yeah....I can't lose Harry too."
We both left, going our seperate ways. I drove home as fast as I could, not even bothering to lock the door once I got inside. I slipped my shoes off, and was rushing to take my jacket off before I saw that Harry was sitting on the couch, wearing his onesie and watching the Titanic. That was our movie.
I walked over, sitting next to him and he practically screamed, jumping back. "Oh. It's you." His voice was cold as usual, and I sighed. "Yeah...Just me. Why are you watching this without me?" I asked, trying to joke. "It's our movie, you can't watch it without me." He didn't even look at me, continued staring at the screen. It was the final scene, where Jack was drowning.
"I wish i was Jack." I heard him say, so I instantly snapped my head to look at him. He's always said he wanted to be that old couple that drowned together, but now he wants to be Jack? "Why?" He shrugged. "If I can't be with the one I love, I want to die. No point in living." I flinched, putting my hand on his back. He pushed me away. "Stop touching me. Go hang out with Eleanor, because you clearly went to spend the day with her and you didn't even bring me home food like you promised. Too busy having sex to spend time with me?
He stormed into his room, slamming it and locking it. I stared at the door, and pulled out my laptop. I couldn't have Harry cut himself. I had to quickly figure out how to make a blog. Tumblr seemed so complicated, but I had to hurry so I quickly completed the sign up. I couldn't think of a username, so I just made it 'CleverUsername'.
I googled his page, and read through a few things. I hit refresh, and there was a video of him holding a knife to his neck. He was wearing the onesie. My heart raced, and I watched the end, and was glad when he didn't cut his neck. He just said 'maybe tomorow' before ending the video.
I sat there, my heart racing before I could even function or figure out how to do this. I went to his 'ask box' which is apparently where you message people. I had a character limit, like on Twitter, so I had to re-type it multiple times to get my message across.
From: Cleverusername
Erm im new to tumblr and i dont knw wht to do. Anyways i wnted to say that i love you and if you need to talk come talk to me, because i bet ur a good guy and no one deserves to be alone i cried when i saw the video of you holding the knife to your neck. XX
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