Is It Forbidden Love?

The Guilt Is Taking Over

"What have I done..?"

Was the question that bit me every time. I felt like a horrible person at this point, but I also thought she changed... But I guess not everyone changes that easily...

I stood in the hall for quiet a while, people passing by would complain how I wouldn't move, but I chose to ignore them.

5 minutes passed by, yet this wasn't helping at all.

10 minutes passed...

'Oh fuck, fuck.'

15 minutes passed...

'Just open the god damn door!'

20 minutes passed...

'Put your hand on the door knob, and TWIST IT.'

25 minutes passed...

'JUST GET IN THE FUCKING DOOR'

30 minutes pass-

"Monique?"

'Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.'

"Monique? Are you alright?"

'Holy shit, fuck...'

"Hello? Please tell me your alright?"

'No I'm not alright'

"Okay I'm tired of playing games, what is wrong!?"

She said angrily, yet with the hint of worried.

I felt myself grow angry inside, I knew she was worried, but its just hard..

"I AM NOT OK, ALRIGHT!?" I yelled out of the nowhere. My hands were sweating and clenched into fists. My teeth were gritted trying to keep a stern face as I faced her. She cringed when she saw how angry I was,"Gee! Im sorry for being worried! But you have some talking to do! Kobe wants to know!" Desiree said worried as she shook my shoulders gently.

I stood staring at her emotionless. She decided to do the same. We were dangerously close, but the good part was we weren't touching. She let go of my shoulders and both stared emotionless for a while.

Its like we were lost in space. Nothing was happening.

Exactly...

Nothing...

Though, the silence does have to be interrupted at once.

But right now, nobody was interrupting us. People who seemed innocent passed by us, turning around every 5 seconds. Patients who seemed unlikely sick passed by us, turning around every 4 seconds. Co-Workers who seemed sophisticated passed by us, turning around every 3 seconds. Nurses who seemed bewildered passed by us, turning around every 2 seconds. Doctors who seemed underwhelmed passed by us, turning around every  second.

We hated the thoughts that circled around in the air...

Negative energy was swirling around.

The stares just continued on and on, every minute.

We both knew we weren't enjoying this after all, it sucked to be true.

We felt like we needed to start over once again...

"Yo, its nice to meet you! You can call me Ben for now, but spelled B-Ê-N, Bên!" Bên said while introducing herself. I smiled and decided to introduce myself too,"nice to meet you too Bên, you can call me Moo." Bên sent a smile before saying,"we should talk, ya seem rad enough." I decided to accept her request,"sure!" Mr.A was talking with us too, but didn't say much, we all didn't since it was Instagram. "Ya guys have kik?" She questioned with her usual 2 question marks "??". I typed in yes and said my kik name, she said hers, Kobe did the same...

"We aint going to stop talking! I wont for the least, I mean I still talk to both Ash and-

Max."

I decided to text in,"yeah I talked to them both too, but stopped talking to Ash and Max randomly."

"Ah"

"Yep"

"I hope we meet someday and become youtubers together! ^^" Bên typed in to relief the silence and awkwardness forming in the small group chat.

"Sure! That would be awesome." Mr.A typed in.

"Yayy"

"Yeah sure."

Desiree extended her hand towards mine...

"Hi."