While the night began falling
And the world around me got to sleep
The voices started calling
And I really really really want to be dead
The numbness in my heart
The fog growing thicker in my head
Emotions spilled empty
Happiness and Sadness blended together
Gratefulness and hatred seemed the same
I couldn't feel happy for the ones I loved
I can't feel sad when I watch the world fall down
The shadows are craving an answer
And I don't know what to say
The demon following me around
Have started to be the only one that understands
The one I love are staying in a distance
And I'm too much of a mess to ask her to be with me
Cause that wouldn't be any fair
I wished she asked me to be hers
Although I already am
But I just need something that shows that I'm something she likes
She talks about her type, someone who makes her happy
And how the fuck am I supposed to make her happy
When I don't even know what happiness are
I'm lost in an broken world
The pieces of glass shattered around me
And I can't seem to see the bad side of being dead
But at the same time I'm too scared to even pick up the knife
And i wish I had the guts to end my life
My world is growing darker and darker for every minute
And I'm feeling like I'm burning to ash
I feel like I'm nothing
Like I'm something dragged on the ground
I don't mean more that a leaf on a tree
And most of the time I feel
Like the pretty seashell people pick up
and then when they see they aren't whole
They throw them away again and walk away.
And honestly, I'm just hoping to die
And everyday I keep up the lie
When in reality
I really want help
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