Today I realized something, you can't walk away from love. I also realized something else, no matter how many times you try to, you always end up right back where you started.
I'm 18 so I've seen my share of romance/ sappy movies and they all seem to end the same way they started. Two people madly in love. But I'm not sure I believe in love anymore. It used to be this great thing, a feeling, like being on cloud nine or something. It was all sunshines and rainbows until one day something just clicked.
We fought more often, he'd storm out and I even lost my voice a couple of times from our screaming matches. I wondered if all those tears shed was worth it. Who am I kidding of course it is, I loved him so much it hurt. I'd do anything for him and so would he... at least I thought we would. You think you know someone so well but do you really?
I thought I knew who Adam was,cheeky, caring and charming, the boy I fell deeply in love with.I mean yeah he had a temper and a bad past and was inappropriate at times but I was seeing a side of him I didn't like. The boy he was in his teens, arrogant, rude and just careless. People change, sometimes not for the better.
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I sit on my bed pondering in my thoughts, trying to figure out what exactly happened a couple of weeks ago. It seems to be one big blur in my mind but thats the only thing I've been thinking about. I missed him, I wish he'd just come home already. The house was quiet, too quiet and I hated it! I simply layed back and dreamed of when times were better...and also not.
YOU ARE READING
Gone, gone gone
Romance"You didn't love her. You just didn't want to be alone. maybe she was good for you ego. Or maybe she made you feel better about yourself. But you didn't love her. Because you don't destroy the people you love!"
