Little bump

Tiggy

I was helping my mom with dinner hen m dad called my in the living room "yes papi" I say "look she found your old tiger stuffie that you'd never let go of remember you called it Tiggy" I could feel the tears coming up in my throat, I ran off to the bathroom to be alone, I need her, I fucking need her so bad but I can't go back, I can't stay but I can't let her go,
I don't know what to do, I need Dinah I start singing "if there's a God out there please here my prayers I'm lost and afraid and I have no where else to go I've come a long long way but I'm not sure I can make it much farther so if your listening could you give a helping hand to your daughter" I see my old razor across the bathroom, I grabbed it "it's been two years Lauren, your stronger then this" a voice in my head said, I ignored it 15 cuts in total I start singing again "what ever I did I would take it all back I'd cycle the world to get back what we had tell me what must I do to deserve your love is there anyway I'll ever be good enough is there any way I'll ever be good enough", I start cutting my thighs, I don't know what took over me, I went back to my own ways, I was shaking and I couldn't stop, I heard Corey start to cry I put a sweater on and pulled my pj pants down walked out of the bathroom and grabbed my crying baby girl, I walk into the kitchen with Corey in my hands and make her a bottle for after her bath, I put her bath chair (idk the real tearm for it) and start the water "sorry baby girl mommy knows you hate bathe but you need one" I say as I place her in the water, she starts crying, she absolutely hates baths, after 5 minutes I take her out and put her in some pjs I bring her upstairs and feed her, then place her in bed he looked adorable so I took a photo and put it on Instagram
"Miss Corey Daniella may not like baths but she loves taking naps #redheadedprincess"
After I posted that, a shit loud of commutes came in saying I took the baby and give her back to Dinah, this is going to be a long process
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Psa
If you self harm just know I love you
If you are depressed just know I love you
If you need a reason to stay alive one more day just know I'm here for you and I love you
Self harm is no joke
Suicide is no joke
Depression is definitely no joke
Don't joke around with this stuff
People who get bullied and are depressed just know there's hope at the end of the tunnel, and if you don't have haters you must be ugly because haters and bullies are just jealous jake asses who want to bring you down
Self confidence is the key
If you ever need someone to talk to I'm here for you
And I love you
Xoxo Danielle
Ig- @beanielaurinah