Journal Of The Distorted; The Lost Path

Pain of having a Long Distance Relationship... :'(

8/21/2015

Like I said on my bio here on Wattpad...

I'm taken...

In a long distance relationship...

In all honesty... It hurts so much... To know that my first long distance girlfriend had been through so much even now... I also had been through rough times before getting to know her...

For 8 months, I've been staying strong for her... I'm waiting for the time that I can atleast go to her place and hug her tightly and say how much I love her...

I wanted her to know how much I love her... I wanted to know more about her...

But... Why am I feeling this doubt?... Maybe it's because I'm a bit paranoid... No... I gave her my full trust... I shouldn't be like this... I trust her... Even though she's in a environment where I feel she's in danger...

Even if I trust her... I have these questions that are filling up my mind... Full of Thoughts... And here again, comes paranoia...

08/24/2015

It's already been a week since my long distance didn't texted me... :( ... I know I did something wrong... Which is not texting her ever since last week...

My mind is filled with guilt,
Knowing that I didn't even managed to text her just for a single day...

I really am worthless... :(...

I-I'm sorry... I just wanted to get this uneasy feeling off of my chest by writing down all of my worries, anger, depression and all...