Kira of Alfhiem (Elfin Warrior Series Book 1) [Completed]

Amber

I woke up to Amber swirming in my arms. I opened my eyes to see her trying to pry my arms away. I quickly released her and she crawled out of the bed. "Come on Kira! I'm hungry." I sigh. "Don't you know how to make cereal for breakfast?" I complained. She just shrugged. "I want pancakes." She said. She gave me the puppy eyes and I couldn't help, but relent. She squealed as she jumped up and down.

She dragged me to the kitchen by the wrist. "Will you make a smiley face with the syrup?!" She asked loudly. "Shh! You'll wake Janson!" I whispered. "Ugg." We heard from the couch. "Too late!" she chirped.

I started to make breakfast for the three of us. I made pancakes and Amber's had a smiley face made of syrup. I also my myself some coffee. Coffee sounded so good to me! I set down breakfast and we started eating. Amber looked up at me with her black eyes that seemed to pierce my soul. "Can I come with you tonight?" She asked.

I choked on my coffee. She saw me kill her parents and wanted to come with me to fight more dark elves?!?! I thought to myself. "No." I said bitterly. I didn't need her there and I'm not sure she really wanted to know what I do.

"Why not?" She whined. She then looked at me with the puppy eyes. I held back the urge to relent. "Because I said so." I bit out. She looked ticked. "You sound like my mom." She said. If her intention was to guilt trip me then it was working. I definitely felt the guilt.

I remembered the fear in her eyes when I had first approached her in that cabin. I remembered the tears that fell down her cheeks when she awoke from her nightmare later that night. I felt the guilt. I stood and left the room without another word.

I went to the bedroom where I started gathering weapons. I was gonna use Demaras again and all three of my daggers. I was also going to bring the rest of the blue powder. I heard the door creak open, but refused to turn around. I heard light footsteps and knew it was Amber. "I'm sorry for upsetting you Kira. I didn't mean to!" She said. I turned around and saw her face.

There was evidence that suggested that she had been crying. I sighed and motioned for her to come to me. Her face brightened and she wrapped her arms around my stomach. I brushed her hair with my hand. "It's fine. I'm the one who's truly sorry. I'm sorry for what I did to your parents! I'm sorry that you had to watch! I'm sorry that your parents weren't the absolute best! But what I'm sorry about most, is that I will never compare to them. I will never be able to take back what I've done." I said.

Each word was torture. Pain encased my heart and it felt as if I was being stabbed in the chest with each word. For the first time in three thousand years, I cried. I cried for the pain I had inflicted in this little girl that I was starting to love. I had never even loved in my lifetime, but it was the first word that came to mind when I thought about my feelings for Amber.

I loved her as if she was my own. As if she was my child.

She looked up at me and began to cry too. "I forgive you Kira. You had every reason to do what you did." She said. My chest tightened at her words. She didn't understand! "No! I could of snuck up on them and used the blue powder to knock them out! I could of had Janson open a portal to Svartalfhiem!" I said.

I was angry at my self. I wanted to go back in time and change it. If I was another person, I would slap me. She looked up again and her eyes held the sadness she felt. "You can't change what you did. What's done is done and-" she stopped for a moment. More tears fell from her eyes. It ripped my heart in two. "-and you have to try to live with the choices you have made." She finished.

There was logic to her words, but even she had to know how difficult it was going to be. Some mistakes haunt you for life.

I looked away and we just stood there crying for a while. When we couldn't cry any more, we took a nap. I had nightmares of the night in the cabin and woke up many times. It seemed that it was the only thing I could dream of.

Every time I woke up, it was Amber's face that I saw and it made me cry. I cried myself to sleep every time I woke up. It was agonizingly painful and I couldn't stop the tears. I was a warrior that was crying over a memory of doing my job!

The pain was an ocean that I was trying to surface from, but kept sinking in. It was bound to consume me at some point.

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This is an author's note:
Thank you for reading my book! This is the shortest chapter so far, but it is filled with a ton of emotional pain. My heart goes out to Kira and no, I have never suffered pain like her's. I can only imagine. If you have any questions then please ask in the comments. My favourite character is Amber, but I want to know what you guys think. Please feel free to comment on who your fav. character is. Thanks!