I skipped round to the slide and held out my arms,
"Come on Kieran, it's okay" I called.
"Daddy do it" he grinned.
"Alfieeee" I beckoned him over and he came running.
"What's up buddy?" Alfie high fives him.
"Will you go down the slide?" He smirked,
"Yeah I will after you"
"Where's Jake, Melissa and Lisa?" I questioned.
"On the roundabout" Alfie laughed as he pointed to it. I looked over and Jake was spinning them round as fast as he could.
"JAKE! Be careful!" I shouted over and he turned round and nodded.
"Watch mummy!" Kieran screamed and he came flying down the slide into my arms.
"Wowwww, I don't think I can go any faster than that" Alfie chuckled. Kieran grabbed his hand and pulled him over the the ladder.
"Please do it" he pouted and stuck his bottom lips out. Alfie sighed and began climbing the ladder.
"Dad, what are you doing?" Jake hid his face in embarrassment whilst the girls just laughed.
"Don't hurt yourself Alf" I spoke and he blew me a kiss whilst mouthing, 'I won't, it's a kids slide Zo'.
He slid down and went skidding off the end. We all laughed after checking he was okay.
"Go again Kieran, Daddy's going to vlog you doing it" Alfie encouraged him as he pulled out his camera and pointed it at him.
"Hey guys, so now myself, Zoe, Jake, Melissa, Lisa and Kieran are at the local park, and Kieran here is about to go down the biggest slide in the world, I went down it and let's just say it didn't end well.
'HE LANDED FLAT ON HIS BUM!' Melissa yelled in the background followed by continuos giggles.
"Okay, go Buddy!" Kieran soared down and I caught him once more.
"For a little boy your quite brave" Jake chuckled.
"I'm not little I'm five" he stuck his bottom lip out again.
"I'm 15, I beat you" Jake grinned.
"I'm nearly the winner in 10"Melissa shouted.
"I'm 8, so I'm close" Lisa pouted.
I looked at Alfie and smiled, he walked over and placed his arm round my waist, still holding his camera. He lightly kissed my cheek and then turned off the camera. He kissed my lips and held it there for a moment until we heard Jake behind us and a camera button go off.
"Jake!" I sighed. He smirked and seconds later my phone buzzed.
'Jake Deyes tagged you in a photo' I swiped across and watched as the comments blew up and the fans going crazy.
I tilted my head at him and he chuckled then walked away, I was kinda used to it by now, he does it every time.
"Right tiddlywinks, come on!" Alfie called them all.
"Melissa Deyes off that! Come on darling!" I shouted to her. She came skipping over with a grin on her face.
I held onto her and Lisa's hands and Alfie turned round and snapped a picture of us all.
"Cute" he winked.
"Shut up you" I smirked as I paced up next to him and lightly hit his bum.
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"What's for teaaaaaaa?" Lisa squealed.
"Why don't we go to nandos in town?" Alfie suggested and we all nodded along.
"Alfie" I sighed, but quietly so the kids wouldn't hear.
"Yes liccle one" he smiled and pulled me closer to him.
"I feel a bit anxious, like panicky" I murmured as I tucked my head into his shoulder.
"Where do you want to eat?" He whispered, extremely close to my ear, making me shiver and blush.
"Nandos still but please stay close to me" he kissed my cheek, "don't worry baby".
"I'm not your baby now we have those four" I giggled softly.
"You will always be, no matter how many babies we have" he said, as he cuddles me close, planting a kiss on my head.
"Mum!" I heard Jake yell.
"Can Louis and Elliot come over to film a video tomorrow...or tonight and stay over, they're on Skype now?!".
"Yeah, tell them to come now and they can come to nandos, if you need my filming stuff then use it in the spare room" I shouted back.
I looked up at Alfie and he kissed my lips gently.
"They're coming now... Well in fifteen minutes" he yelled happily.
"Okay" I said, a bit quieter this time.
"Come and lay down on the sofa" Alfie looked at me, obviously worried.
I walked into the cost room, the kids were playing in the living room.
I grabbed a pillow and a blanket then led down.
"Are you sure you wanna come?" Alfie whispered, stroking my hair with a lot of care.
I nodded, "I just need to lay down for a sec".
"Dads, can I-" Jake started, "are you alright mum?" He asked, staying in the doorway.
"I'm fine, we'll leave in a second" I smiled weakly.
"Okay, Dad, can I blow up the three airbeds and can we sleep in the living room pleasee, and can we stop and get food on the way back too" he asked, smirking.
"Yeah, whatever, get the others to help you, I'm gonna stay in here with mummy" Alfie replied.
"Thanks, love you Mum" he grinned.
"Love you too" I chuckled.
I rested my head down and played with Alfie's hand. I could sense him watching me, but I didn't mind that much.
"Mummy, Jake said we have to help" Melissa shouted.
I closed my eyes and waited for the next shout.
"They won't mooooove" Melissa called again.
"I'll go" Alfie stood up and walked in to the other room.
"Pack it in Kieran, Lisa, move" he said calmly but annoyed.
"Jake, pull them out with your sister and then blow them up, you two, stay out the way please" he organised.
He then walked back in and sat infront of my legs again.
"Do you want anything? Water?" He questioned.
"No, I'm all good thanks" I smiled, I then sighed, "it's ridiculous that even with four kids and married, I still get like this, and let anxiety ruin me" I said, my voice wobbled a bit and I felt tears coming but blinked them away quickly.
"Don't cry, we're going to go out to Nando's once Jakes friends are here and then we can come back, and we'll go to bed and cuddle all night" he sorted out, leaning down and pressing his lips against my head and then onto my lips.
I kissed back gently and then we both pulled away.
Alfie then lifted my feet up and sat down, resting them on top of his lap.
"I love you" I whispered, "so much".
"I love you too" he blushed a bit which was cute as.
"I'm just gonna quickly shut my eyes for a sec" I murmured.
"Okay then" he raised his eye brows and smirked.
