No More Secrets - Ben Downed X Jeff the Killer

Distance

Jeff pov:

I had just punched ben in the face. I never intended to hurt him. Tobi needed that punch not ben. Ben kept saying that it was a unfair fight. Tobi is such a dick why did ben protect him. I gasped. Does ben love tobi. He cant he is with me.

I looked at ben then left him still on the floor with tobi in the garden. I walked up to my room and left my door open. The next thing I hear is masky talking with ben. I peeked around to door. I hurd ben say that he got punched in the eye by the training dummy bot. Ben just lied to save my ass.

Maybe he still loves me. He is messing with me and toying with my emotions. I shut my door. I cant face ben not with all this going on in my head. Ben opens the door and looked at me. He had sadness in his eyes.

My emotion flared up "get out, you shouldn't have protected him he deserved it" I began to tear up while looking at ben. "GET OUT OF MY ROOM BEN" I screamed. Respectfully ben left with out a sound. I punched the wall and locked my door. I sat in the cornor of my room hugging my knees and crying.

I know I am totally insane and I have anger problems but I have truly messed up now. The only person in this world who had enough balls to date a insane psychopath like myself was ben. I love ben but after todays actions I am not suprised if he does hate me. I have been a total jerk to him.

Ill just give him some time to come around. If ben really loves me he would forgive me for being a massive jerk. I hugged my knees tighter as more silver tears fell from my eyes. I hated crying in front of people.

Over the years I have learned to cry silent tears. No one knew that I cryed in my room, but I gather some just know. Ej and masky are the only ones who has seen me cry. I had a mental brake down on ej and masky walked in on me. That is when the lock was added to my door.

I rocked forward and backwards against the wall. The more I thought about ben the more I cryed. Ill just stay locked up for a fue days. Todays events will blow over. Im sure of it.

Every minute of sitting in the room in silence was driving me insane. I mean I am already 100% bonkers but this was taking it to a new level. I dryed my face and blasted skillet through my speakers loudly. I didn't care who hurd.

I placed song after song at max volume. Music drowned out all the thoughts in my head. Hours passed by and I felt really ill. I turned down my speakers and listened to the soft drone of my music send me in to a deep sleep.