It was now two A.M. I couldn't sleep. Every time I closed my eyes I saw him. I saw his lips, so soft and pink. I saw his dimple, the dimple that popped out every time he smiled. I saw his eyes, oh how I loved his eyes, green, as green as an emerald.
I wanted to sleep, oh how I wanted to close my eyes and sleep. I wanted to forget about tonight; I couldn't tho. Not without seeing him.
I threw my legs over the side of the bed knowing I wasn't getting sleep and walked over to the couch. I grabbed the remote and threw myself onto the couch as I turned on the tv.
The first thing I saw on tv was the thing I clicked on. It was vampire diaries; I absolutely loved this show but with everything going on I didn't know if I should watch it. I pushed all my thoughts aside and watched the show.
I heard a vibrating sound on the table by my bed, signaling I got a text. I groaned; not wanting to get up from my comfy spot. Soon the vibrating stopped but started as soon as it ended. "Ok ok. I'm getting up!" I yelled acting as if my phone was a person.
I groan as I get up and walk over to my phone.
Unknown number: Elizabeth. Please talk to me. I have so much to explain to you. Meet me tomorrow at the park at noon. If you don't come then I guess you don't want me back, but I will find a way to get you. I promise.
I was nearly in tears by his words. Of course I wanted to go. But i couldn't. I just couldn't see him. If i saw him i would brake instantly. He couldn't see me cry, he couldn't see how much i missed him. I didn't reply. I just turned my phone off and went back to my show.
"Stephan don't leave me. i know you love me!" "No Elena. Not anymore. goodbye."
I cried. I just couldnt stop the tears. "I hate you!" I screamed. He ruined me. He ruined me so much I can never be fixed. I will always be reminded how much I hate him. How much I hate myself.
I just sat there. Crying. I was just done with life. With everything. I couldn't live like this forever and someday I would end all my pain.
How could you? You ruined everything! This is all your fault! You are the one who should be punished not him; you.
I walked to the bathroom and sat on the cold floor. I wanted to disappear. No one would even notice I was gone. No one cared about me. Why would they. I'm ugly. I have no life. I'm fat. I'm alone. I don't have anyone who cares about me.
I couldn't take it. I just couldn't. I grabbed my phone. Goodbye. Was the last thing I said.
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I opened my eyes to be blinded by light. I didn't like it. I looked around the room a little and realized I was in the hospital. 'How did I get here? Who found me?' I kept on asking myself. I needed to know these answered. I look at my wrist. bandages covered them.
I closed my eyes, leaning my head back on the pillow. Why couldn't it all be over? Why couldn't my life just end? I tried to end it for a reason.
"Nurse, how long till I get out of this retched place." I scream. "Miss, you have to stay the night here so we can make sure your stable." She said popping her head through the door.
"No! I want out of this hell hole! Now!" I scream. I start getting up out of bed. "No miss you must stay in bed." The nurse exclaimed running over to me.
I burst out in tears. Seems like I couldn't stop crying. "Maybe if you have someone you can stay with you can leave. But you have to stay with them for a day."
"I can do that." The nurse handed me my phone. I dialed Nicole's number instantly. She didn't pick up so I dialed again but she still never picked up. There was one last person that could help me but I didn't want his help. I didn't need his help. "Ma'am you need to hurry. The doctors giving you five more minutes or else you will have to stay here."
