"Ok Elizabeth, what happened back there? last night you sounded so happy and you call me this morning crying. You said you were happy, so what the hell happened?"
I still didn't trust my voice. I didn't want to talk. I didn't want to do anything. "Elizabeth!" he said almost yelling. "What Happened?" He looked in my eyes, I wanted to tell him, I wanted to tell him about everything, but i didn't trust my voice. "I...." I couldn't even make a simple sentence without braking.
I tore my hands out of his and covered my face. I was to embarrassed. How could one care about someone so much just to leave them. "I cant." I whimpered.
I was so ashamed. Not even for crying anymore but for leaving him, for being a coward. I should of faced my problems, not run away from them.
"Elizabeth, I don't know what to tell you. I've never been in this kind of situation. But if you want my advise I would say go find him. Tell him how much you love him but explain to him that you need time."
He was right. I wanted to run away; to never face my problems. But I could never escape them either. I had to face my problems.
"Ok" I looked into his eyes. There was something he wasn't telling me. I could tell. "What is it Tommo? spit it out." The frown on his face told me it was something bad. "Louis?"
He still had that same frown, I was starting to get worried. "Louis what is it?"
He still didn't say anything. It was scaring me. How bad could it be? Its not like it would be the end of the world, Right?
"Louis, please tell me." I begged. I wanted to know. I had to know. "What is it Louis? Whatever it is, its fine, you can tell me."
He still didn't say anything. He didn't even look up. It was killing me. I didn't know what to do. "I give up." I whisper. "Thanks Louis, f-for everything."
I walk over to the door "goodbye." I say looking over to him waiting for him to stop me but he never did.
I sighed and shut the door. I had to admit I was a little hurt that he didn't tell me but he didn't have to, it was his decision. I walked over to the stairs, looking at the ground as I went. I was sick of people hurting me and keeping secrets from me.
Why couldn't someone just show me they cared and didn't keep secrets and lie to me? Why? Why couldn't someone just stay with me, help me with my problems, never leave no matter what? why couldn't I be loved?
I was about to cry. I couldn't stop crying. everything in my life has ruined me. first my mom leaving me, then bumping into Harry, then people keeping secrets from me; i couldn't take it! I was done!
when I got to the ground floor I took off. I ran to the park as fast as I could. I was sick and tired of being lied to and left. People ask why i push them out, its because I'm constantly hurt, somehow, someway, someone hurts me.
i found a bench and sat down, catching my breath at the same time. I felt like a doll, trapped, only played with when someone was bored and then tossed back to the shelf till next time.
I was sick of being a doll, just played with when bored, I wanted to be loved, to be cared for. I was cursed tho, cursed to live a life alone.
No one cares about you, they just use you when they're bored.
This kept going through my mind.
I tried to push the thought to the back of my mind but it kept coming back, haunting me.
i started to feel sick, everything that has been going on has been making me sick, physically and mentally.
i ran to the nearest bathroom as fast as i could. i pulled my hair back. nothing came up but i still felt like something was about to happen. i opened the door getting ready to leave when i saw 2 kids playing, they looked pretty young.
