I cant lose you

And the truth comes out

Emily▫▪▫▪▫▪

We have been driving for so long its been 3 hours refusing to sleep because I have to keep an eye on him. He's crazy he's fucking crazy. He has this look in his eyes that makes me shiver. He keeps sparing glances my way like if I would disappear or like I was never there. Fuck I new it something was gonna happen I felt it, now what am I supposed to do.

Soon after he parks in front of an apartment complex. He gets out and opens my side pulling me out by my arm. I think of screaming but
"Don't even think about it its 2 in the morning "
I shut my mouth after. He opens the door and pushes me inside. He unties the ropes on my wrist.
"Don't think about doing anything or else I'll tie you down to a chair"
He said I rolled my eyes and walked away I was not gonna talk to him.

I walked around looking for a bathroom until I found it. I closed the door and locked it, I looked through his cabinets but stopped when I looked under the sink. They were pills a lot of them, I picked one up than another, then another. They were all prescribed to him many were from years ago. He's mentally I'll like he should be in a nut house, what the fuck and I never new never noticed.

Back then he would forget a lot of things and tell me I was crazy because it never happened and I would brush it away, I thought he just forgot. That's why he said we were still together. I walked out of the bathroom and walked into his room. He hasn't noticed I was out of the bathroom he's still in the kitchen. I left the door a little opened I could hear him whisper to himself. I looked around there was pictures on his desk from us of the past. I heard him drop something so I got out of his room and to the kitchen. He dropped a pan, he was holding his head with his hands.

I picked the pan up and put it on the counter. He opened his eyes and put his hands down and looked at me.
"I'll be back" he said as he ran off.
He was trying to make spaghetti.
I grab the ingredients and start to make spaghetti. When comes back I already finished
"You made it"
I nodded
"Thanks" he said and I walked away
"Hey are you not gonna eat"
I shook my head no
"Ok"
He said and grabbed a plate. I grabbed a blanket and laid down on his couch.
After awhile I heard him get up, I pretended to be as sleep.
He lent down and kissed my forehead. I held my breath, get off get off I thought. He moved away and walked back to his room but before he locked the door and put the key in his pocket.

Awww f*ck now what