Getting through high school

Chapter 11: I Needed You

Shane's pov

I guess you never really understand what it's like to live without someone who you had seen every day of your life. You can never fully forget what it was like to feel their hands on your body or their lips on yours and it's like a piece of you has gone missing. No one knows what it's like unless they've been through it, where even if you see the back of them or someone who looks the tiniest bit like them and it hurts like nothing else has ever before. That stinging feeling in your chest, like your heart is breaking. I really wish we could've made it, but it's all up to him now, I give up with trying to make him love me when he has so many people throwing themselves at him. Altogether, it just hurts and he doesn't understand that, he doesn't even text or call me anymore, he prefers Cat over me.

Joey's pov

Shane has been the main thing on my mind. Everyday I type a text to him, but I never end up sending it. I feel so lost without him and everyday it just gets worse and worse and I just can't miss him anymore, and I know that I promised that I'd never leave him, but I have, and I can never forgive myself for that. At night, I just replay that day over and over in my head and I wish I could go back and stop it, I wish that I never put him through this pain.

Just one more day, and I'll get him back. If he'll even take me back, my world has gone missing and it's all my fault.

Joey's Mom: Joey, Cat's here to see you! Are you coming down or shall I send her up?

Joey: Let her come up please

I hear footsteps coming up the stairs and Cat shuffles into my room, she looks really nervous, I invite her to sit on the bed with me as she begins to talk.

Cat's pov

I need to tell him, I can't keep this hidden forever, I don't want to live in a world without Joey, he means too much to me. My mom drove me to his house, I stood outside preparing myself for at least 10 minutes, I then rang the doorbell, took a deep breath and waited for someone to answer.

Shane's pov

I wasn't ready for all of this, Joey said he was gay, but he's always with girls. Was he ashamed of me? That's why he broke up with me. He never fully loved me, he used me so he could get what he wanted, he was just like the others.

I'll ring him later, I need to know the truth and I'm not going to stop until I do. If he wants me back, then I'll happily go with him. I hope he never hurts me as much as this again, if it's meant to happen, then it will. Everything will happen how God wants it to.

Joey's pov

She leaned in and connected our lips, I felt nothing like I did when I was with Shane. When I kissed shane, it was like fireworks in my stomach, he made me see the colours in life and showed me all of the beautiful things in life. I can't believe I left him.

~Flashback~

Joey: I can't handle this anymore

Shane: What do you mean?

Joey: Us, we've both changed, we don't even talk anymore, we're nothing like we used to be, I think we should see other people

Shane: Are you straight?

Joey: No, but this isn't what love is, it isn't meant to be like this. All we ever fucking do is argue over everything.

Shane: We can't fucking argue if you never even bother to talk to me, I've been trying so hard, but you just ignore me.

Joey: You know what? I tried my best to keep you happy, but you're never pleased with how hard I actually try. WE'RE OVER.

~End of flashback~