Trace Of Innocence

He's so rude

The cold autumn wind flows by rustling the leaves of the trees all around. I lay down under the Magnolia tree with my phone pressed on to my chest while my eyes were locked on to the stars above, filled with tears.

"I need you Meli...." His voice constantly haunted my mind.

I was alone at home as my parents and my sister, Zoey was out that night. I didn't have a mood for a night out so I stayed at home. My eyes were so focused on the sky that I didn't realize that my phone was ringing.

"Hello?" I answered as I wiped my tears.

"Meli, it's me, Amy." It was Amy, my BFF.

"Oh hi! What's up?" I asked pretending to be OK.

"What's wrong?" she asked.

"Wrong? Nothing..." of course I was sniffing and she's my best friend from who I couldn't keep a thing. Not everything.

"Don't lie" she blamed. "I can see you"

"You can?" I asked and got up and saw her at the gate holding up her phone.

She came to me and knelt down beside me and gave me a hug. I don't know what came over me but I broke in to tears as she hugged me.

"It's OK" she comforted me. But no comforting would keep me from crying.

"You should stop thinking about him Meli. He doesn't deserve you after what he's done." She said.

'He' is my Ex boyfriend. Ben Lucas Kendal. Used to date, until he dumped me saying "I can find girls better than you bitch".

That's so rude right? And what's more rude is, he bullies me at school now. Every day, every time possible. That hurts as fuck. Once you were so close. But now... he hates me.

"I'm not thinking about him." I said letting her go and wiped my tears. "But it hurts that he hates me. I just wanna be friends with him."

"I know" she said. "I just came to check if you were OK. You didn't reply my messages either. I got worried!" she complained.

"You, you messaged me?" I asked. I had my phone with me the whole time and how come I didn't notice? Guess I was too dragged away.

"Ya I did, duh?" she rolled her eyes. That's when I saw them. "30 new messages from Amy"

"Sorry" I apologized. Stupid me, crying over a guy.

"It's fine. I need to go. I'll meet you tomorrow OK?" she asked.

"Ya" I nodded.

"Promise?"She asked. She knows me too much. I saw thinking of not going to school. And now she's making me promise.

"Promise" I smiled.

"Yay! Now get inside or you'll catch a cold bae." She said.

"Aye aye captain" and I hugged her good bye.

So I went inside, to my room and sat on the window seal with my legs on the roof. The stars were even clearer to here than from the garden. It's my daily habit to stare at the sky with no talking. It's so mind calming.

"I should go to school tomorrow." I thought. "If I didn't go, he'll think that it's because I'm afraid of him, I didn't go. It's the best to face my fears."

As I continued watching the stars, my phone rang again. "Ben". It felt as if all the air of the room was sucked out of nowhere and I, I don't know why, felt really really angry and nervous.

"Hello?" I took a deep breath and answered.

"Hey sugar." He replied casually.

"Ya right? Seriously what do you want?" it was kinda harsh but I didn't mind it on an animal like him. I had to use that word.

"Oh c'mon bae? Don't act like you don't want me." What the hell? Is wrong with him? He's just more and more confusing.

"You should probably go to Hollywood after college. You're too good at acting that they'll give you all the Grammies." Crushed it.

"Oh yeah?" he asked

"Oh yeah" I repeated. "Bye"

"Whoa whoa. I called to ask you something." He had that creepy tone and I felt that he was up to no good. As always.

"And what is that?" never been so curious in my life.

"I hear someone moaning your name, from the phone." He said and then snorted.

"WHAT?" I don't know why I'm even talking with this guy?

"I know you've been playing with Chris." He said.

WHAT THE FUCK IS HE TALKING ABOUT??? AND WHO'S CHRIS? Oh yeah... the basket ball captain.

"What the hell are you talking about?"I asked.

"So sad. You baby prostitute doesn't know a thing." He laughed. A very rude laugh.

Tears sprang into my eyes. How could he? After all this time. I didn't think that he would be so.... Heartless? He dumped me and now he's accusing me for things I don't know.

"What do I need to know." I said sniffing in.

I guess Ben heard it and said "Good! You're crying! That's what I wanted. People like you deserve to cry. Or shall I say a slut like you! Ha ha!" he said THAT. How, how could he be such a dog? I've never cheated on him. I've never lied to him. That's so cruel of him.

"Why are you so rude? Why are you calling me slut?"  Now tears were tumbling down my cheeks and they fell on my legs wetting my jeans.

"Because you are worth it. A different man every night. Don't think I don't know." The last part he said in a haunted voice. Why is he calling me slut? Me? Sleeping with guys? No way? I'm not Lexie. Queen B of the school.

"Ben I've never ever cheated on you. And I still can't get over you." I said crying.

"Just shut up bitch!" he yelled from the phone.

"You talked to me! Not me! I don't want to mess up your life. I just wanted to be friends!" I almost shouted crying on the phone. How could he? I love him more than anything and I know he loved me. We hardly fought. And I've never said no to anything he said. Except for one thing. He's my first lover...

"Be friend with YOU?" he asked. "I'd rather jump down a cliff than being friends with a BITCH LIKE YOU!" He yelled and he hung up.

"No. NO!!!" I yelled burring my face on to the pillow. Why is he so mean?

I ended up crying till next morning and it was time to get ready for school. The white pillowcase was ruined with my tear mixed mascara and my pillow was damn wet with tears.

I was forced to get ready to go to school and also I promised Amy. I can't break the promise. So I dragged myself to the bathroom. Took a glimpse of myself from the mirror and saw what I mess I was. Eye liner and mascara drooled down my cheeks and my eyes were red. Hair was messy as fuck. I realized how a guy could ruin my life. And I'm not going to be ruined or used. I have something called dignity.

"If he wants it bad, I'll give him bad" I said to myself as I looked at my yucky looks.

"Hurt me once again Ben, say that I'm all. You'll pay enough for it."

I washed myself and got ready for school.