Endlessly. (H.S. FF)

-7-

After he's gone, you think about the last days before more than you should. You try to figure out if your last days were good ones, if you did it well. If you could say good-bye to your only reason to live. Or whether you had a fight and now that he's gone, you're mad at yourself because you were angry at him because of a related to death tiny reason. It's all so confusing, why do people keep thinking about something that has already happened and that you didn't see to come?

flashback

We are watching TV in his apartment.

„I don't want to continue the Kardashian drama, honey" Harry mumbles into my hair right after he gave me a little kiss on my head.

To be honest, I love this show. I like to see drama stories from other people because it gets my attention more than my own problems.

But because of Harry I mute the TV and turn around to look at him. „You happy now?"

Harry nods gladly. We both laugh and he begins to tickle my belly so I laugh even more. „Stop, Harry, stop!"

„Why should I? You're so cute when you laugh." He smirks and then suddenly stops tickling me. Harry looks at me like I'm an angel, but in fact he's the real one between us.

I stand up and for a second, Harry looks confused. But then he notices that I want him to lie down on the couch and he obeys me. Right after he lay down, I swing my legs around his waist so I can sit on him. His jeans get pulled off by my hands and immediately his boxers too. We start kissing with passion and love.

„This couch is holy" Harry interrupts the kiss with a dirty smile on his face. I nod but add: „That's beside the point, baby. It'd be always fun to sleep with you, wherever we are." I kiss him again.

I feel his friend getting harder caused by my dirty talk and Harry notices it also, so he avidly pulls my sweatpants and slip off. Meanwhile his fingers touch me down below. „You're so wet, honey. I want to feel you right now."

And with this sentences, I lift my hips up and right after I put them down on him. „Oh god" is the only thing I get out of my mouth.

„Call me H-harry" he tries to be funny but only gets hotter for me with every move we take. It feels like a rhythm, my hips start doing circles. I love it when I got the whole control over it. The look in his eye betrays me that he wants more and more. But I decide to do a little bit torture, so I move my hips extra slow. Then he looks at me desperate. „Please" is the only word he can say, he nearly whispers it. „Please what?" I continue the torture.

To show me what he means, he lifts up his hips to get deeper into me. A little scream escapes my mouth and my eyes begin to flatter. In my last clear moment, I see Harry smiling. „Got ya!"

One move later, I feel his warmth in my body and that gives me the rest. We both gasp and scream at the same time while we climax.

„I love having sex with you, did I already tell you that." Harry looks a little bit sleepy and spent but in a good way. I have to laugh about this sentence. „I love you too."

„I love you" he repeats.

„You already said that." My face begins to smile more and more.

But Harry shakes his head. „No, I didn't, not today. I said that I love the sex. Loving sex and loving you as a person are two different things."

I agree in silence. „Whatever. I just want you to know that I can't live without you. Imagining that feels so impossible."

Harry gives me a kind kiss on my forehead. „My love, why do you think about this? I won't ever leave you, I promise."

flashback ends

But he did. He did leave me even though he promised.

Harry broke his promise.

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smut smut smuttyyy

but still so sad! :((( but i like it like this, that the beginning and end of the chapter is in the reality and so so so sad,  but the flashback is sooo beautiful and sometimes quite smutty haha ! :D so its like youre in a great feeling because of the flashback and then WOOOOOM its so sad again and so uuuggghhh haha.

did u already read "99 days without you"??? if not GO SEARCH AND READ IT NOW ITS SOOO GOOD! :) (warning: still very sad)

thats a big A.N. :D im sorry but i wanted to tell u this. ;) hope u like this chapter and please tell me ur feedback :) and vote if u want :P

xxx Julia