Love Demise!!

Chapter 10

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Chapter 10:

I put Joy to sleep in his crib and changed the bed sheet, with Rahul's help. He was always ready to help as if I was missing on something. It offended me a million times, but it was best to not speak up. I didn't want to see sympathy in his eyes. Respect was different but not sympathy. It made me feel week and vulnerable.

"Umm the function is this weekend. Are you bringing Joy and Ma?" I snapped my head to him.

"Umm ya, I have to bring Joy and Ma... I don't really know" I looked at sleeping Joy.

"Well if you don't mind, I can pick you up and drop my mom here so that she can be with Ma?" he said and as if realising he spoke something bizarre, his eyes widened. "If you want to, I mean... ugh forget it, bad Idea" he added. I chuckled and shook my head in amusement.

"You know, its' not that a bad idea. I can save fuel" I said with a smile. With this, he looked at me, our eyes locked for a nanosecond maybe, but it sent shivers down my spine. I had no clue so as to what I was feeling but I didn't want to feel it, because, I only felt this way with Rohan and only he had that control over me.

"Very well then." he nodded and walked out leaving confused about the feeling. I shook off the thought and continued with the work.

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"Umm this is so tasty Richa" Rachna aunt spoke with almost full mouth. We were having lunch and Joy was giggling and mumbling baby words.

"Thanks aunty, please have some more"

"Oh, its' too much to eat dear. My diabetic level might increase. Serve Rahul instead of me" she said and winked. I giggled and playfully raised a brow at Rahul. He literally stood on the chair with his plate in his hand. Mom and Rachna aunty started giggling uncontrollably, while I was staring in awe as to how a grown soldier-man could act like a 5 year old.

"You put more into my plate and I'll have to stand up on the table Richa" I froze. This was the first time he ever spoke my name in normal conversation. It sounded perfect from his mouth. I mentally scolded myself for thinking all this. He's Rohan's friend, please for heaven sake stop thinking bullshit- I thought.

"But seriously, you cook amazingly awesome" he said. I narrowed my eyes at him.

"That's not even considered perfect English grammar" he chuckled and nodded.

"I know I know" he laughed while I smiled.

In the evening, we all sat in the living room. Joy was on Rahul's lap sitting, more-a-like lying. His reaction was amazing whenever Rahul made a move. It was like he was trying to copy his actions.

"Ma" she looked at me "This weekend" I took a deep breath. I was feeling nervous because after I found out I was pregnant, we hardly spoke about Rohan. I shut my eyes and quickly opened them when I felt something warm on my arm. Thinking its Rahul I was about to scold him, but when I opened my eyes, my baby darling was staring at me with smiling eyes. I didn't understand what that feeling was. I felt energised and active all over again. I felt as though I had Rohan beside me. I let out a breath and looked towards Ma who was patiently waiting.

"This weekend there is a function. Rohan's work people want me come and see the honour given to him. Rahul will be accompanying me. Do you want to see your son being honoured Ma?" I spoke in a breath.

"Oh off course, I would love to. But I will come with Rachna and you go with Rahul. We have a small party to attend that day."

"Umm what about Joy Ma?" I asked. I didn't want her take his burden.

"Oh I will take him. He's such a sweetheart" my eyes widened in awe.

"But Ma his eating habits-" She cut me off.

"I know I know your son is a man eater. I can take care of it Richa. I took care of your husband for 25 years, didn't I?" well she was right. Rohan had irregular eating habits, more-a-like unusual. I nodded a yes to her. She was excited for this.

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"Bye champ, I'll see you soon okay?" Rahul bid a bye to Joy who was very reluctant to leave his grip on Rahul's hair and collar. I laughed to how Rahul had this effect on little Joy.

"Here baby, let go of his hair" I tried my best and he left his hair, now trying to hold on to mine. He held the chain in my neck and other hand on the hem of my top. He rested his head in the crook of my neck and moaned some baby words.

"Bye. I'll pick you up that day, alright? Stay safe and strong" he said and smiled before awkwardly kissing joy's forehead, he left. It felt unusually empty when I closed the door behind him. As if the emptiness had come back after my Rohan left for his training.

I put Joy to sleep and took a quick shower. It relaxed all my tensed muscles and calmed my nerves. I sat on the edge of the bed, moonlight from the window entering and falling on my face while cold wind kissing my cheek and neck. A lone tear escaped my eye and I shut my eyes. I was missing Rohan so bad that it had brought an uneasy feeling into the pit my stomach. It hadn't been that long that he left us. My head snapped to the bunch of letters. I badly wanted to read the next one. I hurriedly took the bunch out and picked the next one out.

19/12/2011 (1900 hours)

To the love of life and the core of my existence,

How are you my love? You miss me don't you? I know you do, I don't have to ask. Don't be mad baby, but I got admitted today for severe typhoid. Yes you read that right. Oh, how I miss your caring sweetheart. I wish you were here. I wouldn't have to worry about anything. Dr. Ashley says I will be given health vacation, so I might be able to see you soon. I so want to come back home and lie down on the bed with my head on your lap while listening to your scolding and you caressing my hair.

You know, I was walking through the academy garden and found a beautiful flower, I was all red and petals all flown to both side and it reminded me of you, beautiful. I plucked it and kept in the bunch of my belongings. Check it out for me please, from the box?

I peeped into the box and found the dried flowers. That gesture of his made me smile.

Now, I know your smiling and blushing, but do you see what I meant when I said it reminded me of you? When you blush, you go all red like this flower.

(1500 hours)

Today, I got a sick leave for 15 days, I am coming home to you sweetheart. Just like I said, I want to rest my head in your lap and I'll be alright.

But, since you're reading this, I won't be there anymore to rest in your lap to kiss you, to hug you. But remember sweetheart, I want you to be happy. I want you to move on. I love you with all my devotion.

P.S. I miss you and love you.

Tears found no way to stop and now my whimpers were audible. This pain I felt was so much like the physical pain that I felt as though my heart was torn into pieces. The memory and Images of Rohan lying in my bed suffering from typhoid made me shiver. He kept his head on my lap on equal intervals of time and I caressed his hair which made him fall asleep. I closed my eyes and lay on the bed with tears still flowing and reluctantly but soon, sleep took over me.

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